down but not out with flu

Not feeling too good,got the FLU BUG. Hopefully,will get over the FLU, quickly.INSYAALLAH.A little fluid retention,bodyache,running nose,the works.Need to rest before the weekend.Thank God its PENANG races and no travelling involved.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

SHARING INFO .......ON HEALTH....BREATHING

I pray and hope that sharing this info will be beneficial to all my families and friends,INSYAALAH.

The first and last thing we do in life is breathe. Breathing is the difference
between life and death. It is the single most important thing that you do in life
and it is the single most valuable thing you have or will ever have.

Breathing, eating, drinking and sleeping are the four essentials of life. Of the
four, breathing is the one that God did not give you much control over. It’s far
too essential. You can make bad choices about sleeping, eating and drinking
and you can survive for some time without them, but you can only survive for a
few minutes without breathing!

Considering how immensely important it is, you can only wonder why we know
so little about it or why we pay so little attention to it. Some people hardly
breathe down into their neck. Many take miserly little breaths that hardly move
the lungs. Very few of us breathe into the abdominal area. Ideally, each breath
should empty and refill your lungs with every exhalation and inhalation.
Inhalation brings in oxygen and exhalation releases carbon dioxide and other
gases.

Air is abundant and free, but we all act as if we were on an ‘Oxygen Budget’.
There is no vitamin, mineral, medicine, exercise or medical procedure that will
ever come close to having the health giving and life saving benefits of air. Many
are searching for the great elixir of life. Many of us spend fortunes on new
products or services that promise better health or longevity. We read magazines
or research papers to find new cures or life enhancing products, but very rarely
do we use our own common sense and natural resources.

We hear a lot about the health benefits of aerobic exercise. But did you realize
that the greatest benefit of aerobic exercise is not so much the movement
(although very beneficial and important) but from the deeper, faster breathing.

Pumping in all of that oxygen is where the health benefits come from. Many
people cannot do aerobic exercises. Yet these are the very people who vitally
need the additional oxygen. Well, it’s so easy - simply breathe. Even an invalid
can lie in bed and breathe deeply and slowly. If they did this for a few weeks,
they would be amazed by the healing power and increased energy they would
obtain.

At the risk of sounding cynical, I will state right now that you don’t hear about
the benefits of breathing because no one has yet worked out a way of marketing
it. There’s no money in selling the concept of breathing. Imagine the fortune that
could be made if advertisers had a product that improved the immune system,
normalized blood pressure, lowered cholesterol, improved circulation,
decreased or eliminated pain, reduced inflammation, increased mental well-
being, decreased or eliminated depression and anxiety, reduced wrinkles and
gave the skin and eyes a clear radiance, fought bacteria, viruses and parasites,
removed toxins and gases from the body, increased energy and improved
digestion and elimination.

Let me inspire you to further explore what could be the single most important
knowledge you will ever acquire; totally free, with no hidden agenda. Breathing
will cost you nothing. It does not require time. You can breathe while watching
television, lying in bed, travelling to work, absolutely anywhere and anytime.

The only place I do not recommend deep breathing is in a steam filled
environment, i.e., not in the bath or shower as water often has chlorine and
other chemicals in it.

I believe that the most effective research comes from trying something yourself
in order to prove its validity. Absolutely no harm can come from breathing. I
truly believe that if you simply breathe deeply and slowly for at least 30 minutes
a day, you will have amazing results.

Many health problems are caused, or maintained by prolonged stress. Healing is
impaired by stress. Pain is increased or prolonged by stress. Breathing deeply
reduces stress, but more importantly it prevents stress from building and adding
to itself. A person who is already stressed will easily becomes more stressed
without any real provocation. We all know people who ‘fly off the handle’ at
the most insignificant things or in an irrational way, not because of any real
provocation, but simply because they are on stress overload.

Regular deep breathing minimizes stress. In the long term you will find that the
more relaxed you are the less likely it is that little things will irritate you.

Deep breathing also relaxes muscles. A lot of back, neck and stomach pain is
frequently caused by muscles being squeezed so tightly that over time the areas
become painful. In some cases, the body permanently takes on the shape of the
tension, such as hunched shoulders and facial wrinkles. Stomach and bowel
problems are often the result of habitually squeezing or tensing the muscles in
these areas.

The immune system needs oxygen to function effectively. The immune system is
a huge chemical factory. All the doctors, scientists and pharmacists in the world
do not have the intelligence of the immune system. When it comes to your body,
this is the army of all armies. It will work hard to capture, kill and destroy any
invader, such as bacteria, viruses, allergens, parasites and yeast infections.

Correct breathing helps to prevent premature aging and degenerative diseases.
The best beauty treatment available is breathing. Just look at your skin and eyes
after doing a simple exercise.

Most people believe we get most of our energy from food, but this not so. It is
estimated that as much as 75% of our physical and mental energy is provided
by oxygen. People often take great care with their nutritional needs, adding
vitamins, minerals and all sorts of health promoting products. Without effective
breathing, your digestive system cannot fully metabolise many of these additives.
A large percentage of these additives are not absorbed or transported
throughout your body. Many of us think that toxins and waste products are
eliminated via our skin, bowels and bladder; we forget that a vast amount of our
elimination is via breathing.

Deep breathing greatly influences emotions and general well-being. With deep
breathing, we can calm ourselves when in a state of anxiety or fear.

Many religious and philosophical practices use breath therapy to bring a richer
or more enlightened state of mind. In recent years, the western world has
adopted many of these principles. Breathing techniques are used to calm the
mind and focus your attention on the greater wisdom of your own body and
mind. Your instincts become stronger and your thinking becomes clearer. Many
people experience a deeper sense of mind, body and spiritual well-being.
I am not endorsing or promoting any particular technique. You should consider
seeking further information elsewhere if you feel that you would like to explore
these options.
But, I am highly recommending that you try deep, long, slow breathing as a daily
exercise to improve health and well-being, release stress, and re-energise your
mind and body. Give it at least two weeks and make up your own mind by
experiencing the benefits.INSYAALLAH.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN

VERY USEFUL INFOMATION TO SHARE FROM AN EMAIL

I received an email from a good friend and i find the info useful to all and i would like to share it with families and friends with the hope and prayers that it will help with regards to health.INSYAALLAH.
Question One: What is the origin of cancer or where does cancer begin?
Cancerous tissue, above all other consequences of choice,
has countless secondary causes. But even for a cancerous condition there is only ONE PRIME ORIGIN and CAUSE. I have simply summarized this origin and cause of cancerous
tissue in a few words. The prime origin and cause of cancerous tissue is the over- acidification of the tissues and the blood due to lifestyle and dietary choices. A cancerous tissue begins with our choices of what we eat, what we drink, what we think and how we live. Cancer is a liquid and this liquid is a toxic acidic waste product of metabolism or energy consumption, diet and especially our thoughts or emotions. In 1966, Dr. Otto Warburg, who won the Nobel Prize in Medicine in 1931 for his discovery of the cause of cancer delivered a lecture at an annual meeting of Nobelists at Lindau, Germany. In his speech he described the primal
cause of cancer as follows:
"The prime cause of cancer is the replacement of the respiration of oxygen in normal body cells by a fermentation of sugar. All normal body cells meet their energy needs by respiration of oxygen, whereas cancer cells meet their energy needs in great part by fermentation. All normal body cells are thus obligate anaerobes, whereas all cancer cells
are partial anaerobes. From the standpoint of the physics and chemistry of life this difference between normal and cancer cells is so great that one can scarcely picture a greater difference. Oxygen gas, the donor of energy in plants and animals is dethroned in the cancer cells and replaced by an energy yielding reaction of the lowest living forms. Namely, a
fermentation of glucose."
The following is a summary of understanding cancerous tissues:
1) Cancer is not a cell but a poisonous acidic liquid.
2) A cancer cell, is a cell that has been
spoiled or poisoned by metabolic or gastrointestinal acids.
3) A tumor is the body's protective mechanism to encapsulate
spoiled or poisoned cells from excess acid that has not
been properly eliminated through urination, perspiration,
defecation or respiration.
4) The tumor is the body's solution to protect surrounding
healthy cells and tissues.
5) Cancer is a systemic acidic condition that settles at the
weakest parts of the body - not a localized problem
that metastases.
6) Metastases is localized acids spoiling other cells much like
a rotten apple spoiling a bushel of healthy apples.
7) There is no such thing as a cancer cell.
A cancer cell was once a healthy cell that has been spoiled
by acid.
8) The tumor is not the problem but the solution to protect
healthy cells and tissues from being spoiled from other
rotting cells and tissues.
9) All tumors are encapsulated cells that are spoiling like a
banana.
10) All tumors are sitting in a mote of acidic fluids. This is what
forms the cyst that is generally attached to the tumor.
11) Cancer is NOT genetic! Lifestyle and dietary choice is
what causes cancer.
12) The only solution to the acidic liquids that poison body
cells causing the effects that medical savants call cancer
is to alkalize and energize the body.
13) The best way to alkalize the body is to infuse natural
alkalizing fluids into the body to force the hyper-alkalization
of the tissues.
14) The cure for cancer is in alkalizing the fluids of the body
not treating the tissues.
In conclusion, the human body is alkaline by design and
acidic by function! If we desire a fit and healthy body we
must maintain that alkaline design.
Question Two: Does diet and lifestyle have anything to do with
cancer?
Absolutely! Cancer is not something we get it is something we
do as a consequence of daily choice of what we eat, what we
drink, how we think and how we live. We either have an
alkaline lifestyle and diet and enjoy a fit and healthy body or
we have an acidic lifestyle and diet and experience
the aches, pains and suffering from metabolic and dietary
acids.
The former US Surgeon General, C. Everett Koop,
had this to say about diet:
"YOUR CHOICE OF DIET CAN INFLUENCE YOUR LONG
TERM HEALTH PROSPECTS MORE THAN ANY OTHER
ACTION YOU MIGHT TAKE."
Question Three: If cancer is preventable how do we
prevent it?
I have said many times that the cure for cancerous tissue will
be found in its prevention not in its cure. That prevention can
only be obtained by making healthier lifestyle and dietary
choices. A cancerous condition is the consequence of
choice. For example, if you want to reduce your risk for
cancerous tissue of the lung by 100%, then stop smoking
and stop associating or working around people who do
smoke. Secondary smoke is just as acidic and damaging to
the lung tissue as primary smoke.
If you don't want a cancerous liver then stop drinking alcohol
and carbonated drinks.
If you don't want a cancerous pancreas then stop eating the
acid, sugar.
If you don't want a cancerous bowel then stop eating protein.
It is that simple. The following are a few research studies from
around the world that substantiate my own findings:
Study: Human study at Harbin Medical College in China
Results: CABBAGE was the most important single food
in reducing the risk of stomach cancer.
Study: Italian study on Smokers
Results: Smokers who consumed GREEN LEAFY and other
VEGETABLES had a THREE FOLD REDUCTION in
their risk of lung cancer with smokers who rarely ate
vegetables.
Study: Hebel Cancer Institute in China
Results: GARLIC, ONION AND TOMATO had the ability to
INHIBIT the CELL MUTATION caused by common
chemotherapeutic drugs... this is based on
conclusive evidence that chemotherapy drugs cause
cell mutations and lead to other types of cancers
later in life.
Study: Mayo Clinic
Results: Cancer patients receiving radiation therapy can
benefit dramatically from optimal VEGETABLE based
diets.
Study: University of Athens School of Medicine in Greece
Results: Women who consumed the LOWEST level of
vegetables had 10 TIMES the rate of BREAST
CANCER compared to women consuming the
HIGHEST level of vegetables.
Study: Human study in Australia
Results: Consumption of CABBAGE, CARROTS AND GREEN
LEAFY VEGETABLES substantial protection against
COLON CANCER.
Study: Aichi Cancer Institute of Japan
Results: Eating VEGETABLES reduced the risk of CERVICAL
and BREAST CANCER in women.
Study: Cancer Control Agency of British Columbia
Results: Eating VEGETABLES dramatically reduced incidence
of BREAST CANCER.
Question Four: If I have cancer, such as colon, lung,
or prostate cancer can I reverse it naturally?> The answer to this question is absolutely!!!!!!!
Once you understand the cause of ALL cancerous tissues as
latent tissue acidosis you can then begin the process of
reversing, regenerating and preventing the consequences
of acidic choices by making healthier alkaline choices.
In closing, I would like to share with you my vision of medicine
in the 21st century.
My vision of the relative purpose of medicine is to include
prevention of illness and promotion of health and fitness rather
than focusing all our attention on the diagnosis and treatment
of disease. I believe the ultimate purpose of medicine is to
help people discover something fundamental within
themselves. And that is the awareness that the true source of
well-being, joy, and contentment that we all seek lies within
one's mind and heart - the emotions and the spirit - not in the
physical world. This is important, so we can all begin to be
freed from the process of grasping for happiness in this
physical world. To support this approach, I believe we must
begin to embrace a more spiritual vision of ourselves and of
humanity as a whole. While providing great love, care and
attention to the physical body, medicine can then and only
then help people discover the nonphysical, spiritual
dimensions of themselves. When this happens, we can all live
and work with less fear, stress, grasping to preserve the
physical body at all costs - we can truly be free.INSYAALLAH.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN

DOWN MEMORY LANE WITH DAD

My father was a bit of a raconteur so there were very few stories that we
hadn’t heard before. If anything, we had heard the same stories over and over
so many times that we would have known them verbatim, except that he was
also such an exaggerator, that with each repetition the stories became bigger
and more colourful. Still, we didn’t really mind, as he filled in a lot of family
history and we knew him well enough to sort out the black and white version
of his colourful tales.In his final year I spent most weekends sitting or lying on his bed and we would
talk. He had reached a point where he had accepted the inevitable, and as a
muslim his beliefs had him well prepared. I also think that his age, and the
fact that his body was so frail, had him feeling quite comfortable with it all. He
had time to do the things he needed or wanted to do and the opportunity to
say what needed to be said. He was at peace with himself.My father’s stories used to imply how much he knew, how brave and
masculine he was, how proud he was of his ability to work and support his
family. Things were always right or wrong, and he was the Patriarch and that
made him ‘King of the Castle’. I always thought that he was sure of himself
and I believed that he always felt that he was in control.When I wanted to know why my father did something in a way that seemed to
me to be totally unacceptable, he would often respond with, “That’s just the
way things are done”. I never found this an acceptable explanation. I noticed
that many of his generation used that phrase. It seems to me that my father’s
generation and all of the generations before him had a very strong mind set
about continuing to follow the old ways, regardless of whether or not they
thought them correct.
My father’s father used to cane him as a way of teaching him good behaviour.
“Spare the rod and spoil the child,” he would say. Caning was also the
punishment for bad behaviour when I attended school. We called it ‘Caning’
back then, but the principle was the same. These days we refer to it as ‘Child
Abuse’ and it is punishable by law. My father’s generation did not appear to question or challenge. My generation
is probably the first to really challenge the old ways of doing things. The
generation coming behind me has really turned things up-side down. The
generation coming through now are asking all the right questions and
demanding better solutions. If we all do away with blame, focus on our own
input and take care with our choices, things can only get better and better. If
we can’t forgive, let us try at least to understand and accept what went before.In his final year, through listening to his stories, I vicariously relived my father’s
childhood with him as the child and me as his best friend.FATHER, I THANK YOU FOR THE TIME YOU GAVE ME.INSYAALAH,He instilled in us strong ethical beliefs and reinforced
the importance of self-esteem We have no tolerance for class or race
discrimination. My father’s controlling and domineering traits taught us to stand
up for ourselves, think for ourselves and fight a good fight.MAY YOU REST IN PEACE,INSYAALLAH.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

THE PROMISE I INTENT TO KEEP

I ALEN NOORDIN promise myself to honour and give gratitude for the privilege of having this life.
I will view my existence as my most precious and valued gift, and
I will endeavour to be happy always,INSYAALLAH

My intention for this journey is to accept love, happiness and peace within each day.
I will operate from a place of respect and honesty with others and myself, and
I will be genuine and thoughtful in my actions.
I will consciously allow my heart to reach out and fill others.INSYAALLAH

I ALEN NOORDIN vow today to fill my body with all that promotes health and vitality.
I will commit to myself to treat my body to the best of my ability.
I will fill my mind with and maintain thoughts that inspire creativity, wisdom, knowledge and optimism.
I will speak of health, faith and happiness and share such words with all I meet.INSYAALLAH

Good fortune, success, prosperity and exciting opportunities will be embraced and received fully.
I will actively pursue quality relationships, enjoyable work and stimulating experiences.
I will be kind and gentle with myself, and allow myself to relax and be peaceful.
I will seek pleasure and excellence in my work as well as my play.INSYAALLAH

Today, I make my pledge to myself, and in my heart I will carry forward my commitment throughout all
the days of my life.INSYAALLAH GOD WILLING.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN

SHARING INFORMATION THAT MAY HELP

To be stress free we must be healthy - To be healthy we must be stress free.INSYAALLAH
You are what you eat. Food provides energy. Every cell within your body
requires energy to live. The food you eat influences the health of new cells.
Cells die off and are replaced every minute of every day.

One of the first indications of stress is fatigue. Fatigue is the body’s wisdom
calling out for attention. Your diet can greatly influence your moods, alertness,
vitality and physical health. When your body is not properly nourished you may
become tired or depressed. Food is preventative medicine. It is vital to your
body's healing capacity.INSYAALLAH

The wrong foods pollute your body and can be considered poisonous. There is
strong evidence to prove that certain foods increase our protection from
diseases and illnesses. The direct cause of many diseases has been found to be
nutritional deficiency. Much information is given about diet and it can be quite
overwhelming.Here's how simple it is:
Eat fruits and vegetables everyday, ideally, eat at least 2 pieces of fruit and 5 vegetables,
Raw, unprocessed foods are superior,
Include oils, but preferably don’t heat them,
Eliminate or greatly reduce saturated fats,
Choose unprocessed grains, nuts, and legumes,
Eat only lean meat, in small quantities, and
Make seafood a first choice for protein.

Most importantly, make food enjoyable and varied. Minimize or eliminate caffeine, M.S.G, soft drinks,
white flour, sugar and animal fats. Be suspicious of any food that contains additives or bleaches or has been
chemically treated. Choose fresh food over tinned or packaged food.

Ideally, drink water. Dehydration is one of the main causes of fatigue and headaches. Without enough fluid,
your kidneys are overworked and you are less able to eliminate toxins. Coffee and soft drinks dehydrate
your body and also rob it of essential nutrients. Too much caffeine works like adrenaline, so it’s like an
artificial stress. Don't drink at meal times because your stomach needs undiluted acids to digest food.

Physical exercise breaks down stress in the body, produces a sense of well-being and increases energy.
Exercise is particularly good for increasing respiration and circulation and decreasing acidity. Exercise
greatly improves immune system function. Stretching and toning exercises help to release toxins and
oxygenate the cells, strengthen muscles, and release or ease body aches and minor pains.

Exercise also kick-starts the metabolism and helps to burn off calories improving digestion and elimination.
Many people hate exercising or simply cannot exercise. For these people, I highly recommend stretching,
swimming, or walking. One of the best things I have tried is the big exercise ball. It's ideal for the lazy
person, as you can sit and watch television and gently rock back and forth. If that’s not do-able, then at
least take 30 minutes a day and deep breathe. Deep breathing is beneficial as an aerobic exercise.INSYAALLAH.hopefully,sharing this information is a help to all,insyaallahGOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

latest photos

My latest photos taken on 3rd FEB 09,after 6 months of Big C treatment of CHEMO AND RADIATION.Insyaallah,all will be well.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN

LETTER TO MY SONS AND DAUGHTERS

Dearest Children,you are now grown ups, I keep repeating that statement over and over in
my mind, trying to understand what it means. I have had your lifetime to
prepare for this, sometimes wanting it to come quickly and sometimes hoping
this day would never come. Most of the time though, I have been preparing
myself and preparing you, by madly gathering life’s questions and answers in
the hope that I haven’t forgotten anything. I keep revising the list inside my
head; checking off all the things I know I’ve already told you – so many times.

As tempting as it is to slip a few of the big ones into a casual conversation I
correct myself and let it go. An image of your face appears before me and I see
your eyes look upward and your mouth tighten with that expression of yours
that we both know so well. “dad I know – you have told me a hundred times
already.

Protecting you and preparing you has been such a big part of who I am – it’s
hard to redefine myself and accept that my job is done.

I remind myself that this is about you, but as usual, here I am making it about
me again. Slightly neurotic, I find myself wanting to explain or apologize or gain
some kind of absolution from you. I want to go back into your history and call
myself to your attention and wipe the slate clean of all my mistakes. I do admit
that I have been selfish and hypocritical at times, and I don’t want you to leave
now thinking it was your fault or that you didn’t deserve better.

Yeah, yeah, I hear you say ‘Don’t worry about it, it doesn’t matter”.

I have such an urge to tell you of promises I made, as you slept below my heart
all those years ago. So very real and profound to me and so intense I’m sure I’
d weep if I even tried to tell you. You of course, would shift from one leg to the
other and endure my disclosure with discomfort and impatience.

I’m indulging myself, it’s my prerogative, but I have promised myself to keep it
all to myself. I want to reminisce, at a time when you have one foot out the
door. I’m going back to the baby and you are going forward to a grown up You
have freedom, independence and adventure on your mind. I know you are
ready; capable, competent and smarter than I’ll ever be.

My attitude shifts as I accept you don’t need any precautions, no more
moralizing; no more “You know what you should do…”

And even though I have represented myself as parent and teacher I see so
clearly that I have also been the pupil. I have learned so much from you, you
have played such a large part in moulding me into the person I am. You have
taught me well and I thank you.INSYAALLAH GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

FEELING PHILOSOPHICAL AGAIN

Words and thoughts are the seeds that inspire heal and motivate us. Just one sentence, a song, poem,
proverb, affirmation or quotation can greatly influence or change our lives. Words of kindness or genuine
loving advice can be so profoundly healing.Many people will walk in and out of your life. But only true friends will leave
footprints in your heart. To handle yourself, use your head; to handle others, use
your heart.He, who loses money, loses much; He, who loses a friend, loses much more;
He, who loses faith, loses all.Health and happiness are the two things that most people will tell you that they
desire the most. Ask a parent what they want most for their child and they will
almost always say, “I really don’t care, as long as they are healthy and happy.”
Sometimes, people say that they want love, success and wealth, but when
asked why, they think for a moment and then say because these things would
make them happy.

Often, people desire health above all else, but only when they feel that it is
threatened. People rarely think about health when they are young, fit and pain
or disease free.Happiness has fascinated me my entire life. I constantly seek it and play with it.
I’m getting better at prolonging it and faster at recognizing it.It takes a little concentration, sometimes memory and sometimes imagination.
Practice and focus have resulted in my ability to simply decide to be happy and
I remind myself to do this often. I used to wait and be surprised and delighted
when something caused me to be happy, until I realized that I could actually
attain happiness regardless of any event or situation.INSYAALLAH.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

still not in the mood

Its been 4 days since i last updated my blog.I am okay,insyaallah,just tired and still not in the mood to write.There is so many things i want to write about but just cannot find the mood to do it.Tomorrow Friday,is travel to K.L. day for the races this weekend ,and all flights are full,so its going to be a long drive (PENANG-KL)FRI-SUN.Inyaallah,next week,i will write with what has been bothering my emotions.Whatever it is i am not going to let it get me down,i am thankful to GOD ALMIGHTY that i am still strong in my mind only a little tired.GOD BLESS and AMEEN.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR OF THE OX

Leaving for SLTC CHINESE NEW YEAR MEETING 09.today and will be back on TUESDAY.27TH JAN09.
I take this opportunity,to wish all my Chinese friends,HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.Let us live in peace and harmony and pray god almighty,insyaallah,that our beloved MALAYSIA AND MALAYSIANS,IRRESPECTIVE OF RACE, CULTURE AND RELIGION LIVE IN PEACE AND PROSPERITY ALWAYS.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

tuesday SCAN results

Thank God Almighty,the results was as good as can be,nothing new can be seen from the scan.Now its recovery time insyaallah.all will be well.There is a lot of do's and dont's when you are a CANCER survivor.The treatment according to both ONCOLOGIST are completed and successful.I am happy and relieved but much has happened this last few days that i have no mood to write my blog,hence the delay.I have been running around since TUESDAY 20TH JANUARY 09.driving to Ipoh straight after my scan results to visit a dear dear friend who was injured in a senseless,barbaric attack by unknown assailants.Thank God ,he will recover,purely because GOD protects a good man and he is one of the best i have known in my life,insyaallah he will recover and be back working soon.I pray that he will get over this episode and move on and i promised him that i will be there for him at all times just as he was there for me in my time of need.Insyaallah,God Bless and Ameen.

day trip for pro/am KL.

SATURDAY 17TH JANUARY 09,Got up at 530am and got ready to catch the 8am flight to K.L.Arrived SLTC at 945am and had breakfast with my colleague SLK,at the security chief's office and reported for duty for the day.All went smoothly and returned by the 8pm flight.Arrived home by 10pm.I felt some numbness in my legs maybe due to being on my feet most of the day.A little rest on SUNDAY,will insyaallah,be better.Monday 19th jan09 will be my day at the hospital for a complete CT SCAN. INSYAALLAH there will be nothing to worry about.I am putting on a little extra weight now that my taste buds is slowly but surely coming back to normal.Oh! how nice to taste all the food i enjoyed and miss for the last six months.But now must not get carried away with eating,(control, control).Family and friends, please, keep praying for me and for all in the world so that sufferings can be remove and all be able to live happily and in good health and peace.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

NEVER ALONE

Throughout my 6 months of treatment,i never felt alone. My wife INA,was my constant companion and my children was always there whenever needed.My family and close friends also rallied round me, all the time encouraging me.I made many friends in the hospital,most in worst condition than me.We encouraged and prayed for each other.At no time was there racial divide,religious barrier or material distinction.We were just there for each other as human beings in need of support.What happens now,after i had completed my treatment? The question playing constantly in my mind.There is a feeling of relieved,freedom,yet stifled by the fact that with cancer,there are no guarantees.I now feel a desire to lend a support to fellow cancer patients,hence my frequent visits to the hospital even after i had completed my treatment.I hope to be able to to share my experiences of my own battle with fellow patients,so that they too can be encouraged to push on.Appreciation is the key word when battling with any kind of sickness,insyaallah,god almighty will give you the strength to overcome.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN

back from active duties in ipoh

Part of my team another 8 not in the picture including my 2 able assistants.
The Perak Turf Club race track.

Thank GOD Almighty i went back to active duties for the first time after 6 months without any health problems.The treatments side effects did not hinder my working and i was able to finish my assignments satisfactorily insyaALLAH.There were some work related problems concerning my team which resulted in a member of my team being suspended for three months.Its a sad episode for the team but attribute this to work hazard.Whatever the mistake made by this team member is in good faith and we will await his return to the team in APRIL 09 when his suspension ends.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN

MY FAVOURITE QUOTES

Received an interesting email from a friend and could not resist putting up 2 of my favourites.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN

IF ONLY WE CAN TURN BACK THE CLOCK

me 3 years old,many many,many.... moon ago.

As of 26th December 2008, i am no longer being treated for CANCER,and i am ready to move on with my life,INSYAALLAH,completing treatment can be with mixed feelings,stressful,exciting,relieved,happy and anxious.For six months my life has been about hospitals,side effects,scans,xrays,blood test,chemo,radiation,loss of taste,loss of hair,medications, injections,proper diet,fruit juices,vegetables,not sleeping well,stay away from viruses,blood counts,white cells,red cells,doctors, nurses and more cancer patients.All this has become an important part of my life.My body and spirit is tired,it has been a long time during this journey that i could just relax.My body has been assaulted by CANCER and its TREATMENT.My outlook and my whole way of life has changed,at least for a time.I want to believe its over and put it all behind me,but can i?The fear still grips me,but i am determined to live my life to the fullest and make each day as if its my last and enjoy the quality of life and that my mind is strong to think that yes, yes, i can turn back the clock ,INSYAALLAH.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN

BACK FROM IPOH RACES

1O Days without treatment, after 6 months what a big relieve,except for the burn marks on my ear and neck,the peeling of the skin,where radiation was focused,nothing else seems to be bothering me,INSYAALLAH.The taste buds are slowly but surely coming back.i can nearly taste again after six months of forcing to eat to keep the strength.
I remember my first chemo session,staring at the ceiling and trying very hard not to cry.I keep asking how could this have happened?Yet as all other things that happens in life,happens and suddenly it dawns to me its happening to me.CHEMO AND RADIATION the treatment for my kind of illness has instilled in me that COPING WITH LIFE AND UNDERGOING TREATMENT FOR BIG C IS TOUGH TOUGH TOUGH.......AND ONE GOTTA FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT........ALL THIS TIME NOT FORGETTING IT CAN TAKE AWAY MY TASTE,MY HAIR,MY PHYSICAL WELLNESS,MY MOOD BUT ONE THING I WAS DETERMINED NOT TO LET IT TAKE AWAY WAS MY MIND and thank the almighty and insyaallah i managed to hang on to it.
I set out on a six month course of treatment as explained by my oncologist DR K.W. LEONG .I started to write to take away some pain.Little did i know that my blog,intended to keep family and friends informed would find new friends,family that i never knew exist and readers all across the country and even the world.My journey became our journey with treatment ending on boxing day 08.Insyaallah,2009 starts a new chapter in my book of life and the pages be filled with good things.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

FEELING PHILOSOPHICAL AGAIN

With the new year,i am feeling philosophical again.Whilst fighting my illness,i learned that when i am awake in the morning i am thankful to the almighty and that if i didn't learn a lot before i sleep,at least i learned a little, if i am already sick at least i am still alive,so i am thankful.Do not overrate what you have received nor envy others.He who envies others does not obtain peace of mind.Words have the power to both destroy and heal.When words are both true and kind, they can change our world.Do not dwell in the past,do not dream of the future,concentrate the mind on the present moment.Use and train the mind to get what you want, instead of letting the mind to use you to get what the mind wants.THINK ABOUT IT......INSYAALLAH, GOD BLESS AND AMEEN

12.01a.m 1st jan 2009

Me at gurney drive the time 12.01 am 1st Jan 2009

Ushering in 2009 at gurney drive was quite an experience,with the crowd all seem to be happy to let go of 2008,none as happy as me as 2008 has been a difficult year for me fighting my illness with CHEMOTHERAPY AND RADIATION.THE ILLNESS HAS MADE ME STRONGER,the path was long WITH DARK TUNNELS AND OBSTACLES,but i walked it with a song,there were fears and tears but i had reasons for cheers,like when the chemo finished,then the radiation finished,all this I THANK THE ALMIGHTY FOR THE STRENGTH.for now its recovery time and 2009 will see INSYAALLAH a healthy me.For my families and friends who prayed for my recovery all i can say is NEW YEAR COMES AND GO,PIECES OF TIME ALL IN A ROW,AS I LIVED EVERY SECOND AND MINUTE,I KNOW I AM PRIVILEGED TO HAVE YOU IN IT,MY APPRECIATION NEVER ENDS,FOR MY GREATEST BLESSINGS IS KNOWING YOU IN MY LIFE,GOD BLESS AND AMEEN