DATE WITH PET

iTS NOT AN APRIL FOOL JOKE,AS ITS ON THE 2ND APRIL 09 AND ITS NOT A DATE WITH A GIRL OR A PET BUT A DATE WITH WIJAYA MEDICAL CENTRE IN KL,WHERE MY WHOLE BODY BE SCAN USING RADIOACTIVE GLUCOSE,TO SEE IF ANYTHING IS MOVING THAT IS NOT IN THE NORM,A PET SCAN IS THE BEST TO FIND OUT IF THE CANCER IS UNDER CONTROL AS EXPLAINED BELOW... The reason why PET is so successful is that no other imaging technique shows the internal chemistry of the body so well. Conventional imaging techniques such as X-ray, CAT scans, and Magnetic Imaging Resonance shows anatomy. PET detects chemical and metabolic changes in disease states, such as cancer, before anatomic and structural changes (detected by conventional imaging) have time to develop. Therefore PET can detect diseases when anatomic imaging studies are still normal, and may be informative in differentiating benign from malignant process. PET evaluation of tissue metabolism can indicate the probable presence or absence of malignancy based on differences of biological activity, where as anatomic imaging depends on size and radiographic characteristics of lesions to determine the likelihood of malignancy. In addition, whole body imaging with PET provides a means to examine all the organ systems in the entire body for both primary and metastatic disease in one procedure.

YES AGAIN I PRAY GOD,INSYAALLAH,ALL WILL BE WELL,AND THE REPORT WILL BE GOOD,SO FAMILY AND FRIENDS PLEASE PRAY FOR ME.

GOLFING AGAIN

After a 11 months break from playing golf due to my illness,TUESDAY 24TH MARCH 09 WAS AN IMPORTANT DATE FOR ME,it was the day i started to play golf again,which at one stage,i was told that i can never hit a golf ball ever again.On this historical day not only did i hit a golf ball but finished the 18 holes and played better than before.THANK ALLAH SWT, and the many prayers from friends and family,i came back from serious illness and able to keep enjoying the pleasures of life,INSYAALLAH. GOD BLESS AND AMEEN

Dedicated to INA

If i were to live my life again its you i will want to marry again and again and again,thank you for being part of my life and making it with me in good and bad times.INSYAALLAH, for many more years to come we will always be together.Happy wedding anniversary,and you are truly God sent,GOD BLESS

LOOKING BACK TO THE GOOD OLD DAYS

50's and 60's / early
'70s............



First, we survived with mothers who had no maids. They cooked /cleaned while
taking care of us at the same time.
We took aspirin, candies floss,fizzy drinks, shaved ice with syrups and
diabetes were rare. Salt added to Pepsi or Coke was remedy for fever
We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, doors or cabinets and when we
rode our bikes, we had no helmets, not to mention
as children, we would ride with our parents on bicycles/ motorcycles 2
or 3 of us together. Richer ones in cars with no seat belts or air bags.
Riding in the back of a private taxi was a special treat.
We drank water from the tap and NOT from the bottle.
We would spend hours on the fields under bright sunlight flying our kites,
without worrying about the UV ray which never seem to affect us.
We go to jungle to catch spiders without worries of Aedes mosquitoes.
With mere 5 pebbles (stones) would be a endless game. With a ball (tennis
ball best) we boys would run like crazy for hours.
We catch guppy in drains / canals and when it rain we swim there.
We shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle and NO ONE
actually worry about being unhygienic.
We ate salty, very sweet & oily food, candies,bread and real butter and
drank very sweet soft drinks, sweet coffee/ tea, ice kacang, but we weren't
overweight because......
WE WERE ALWAYS OUTSIDE PLAYING!!BURNING OFF THE EXCESS CALORIES,
We would leave home in the morning and play all day, till streetlights came
on.
No one was able to reach us all day.There were no handphones. And we were O.K.
We would spend hours repairing our old bicycles and wooden scooters made out of soap boxes,
scraps and then ride down the hill, only to find out we forgot the brakes.
After running into the bushes a few times, we learned to solve the problem.
We did not have Playstations, Nintendo's, X-boxes, multiple channels on
cable TV, DVD movies, no surround sound, no phones, no personal computers,
no Internet.BUT WE HAD FRIENDS and we went outside and found them!
We fell down from trees, got cuts and bruises, broke bones and teeth and we still continued
the stunts.
We never had birthdays parties till we are 21,
We rode bikes or walked to a friend's house and just yelled for them!no such thing as a phone call or emails.
The idea of a parent bailing us out if we broke the law was unheard of.
They
actually sided with the law!
Yet this generation has produced some of the best risk-takers, problem
solvers, inventors and leaders.
The past 40years have been an explosion of innovation and new ideas.
We had freedom, failure, success and responsibility, and we learned
HOW TO
DEAL WITH IT ALL AND COPED AND BECAME GOOD MUM AND DAD.JUST ASK YOUR KIDS..INSYAALLAH AND GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

after the hard work

After 2 days of racing this weekend at PENANG, its time for a rest. Its been a mix of very hot and rain for the two days of racing.All went well with work with no untoward incidents for my team.I am a little tired and weak but tolerable,INSYAALLAH. Must start treadmill exercises to get fitter for the work load coming next week.At least i am not doing any travelling as the races are still in Penang.My tastebuds are slowly but surely coming back and on a scale of 1 to 10 i would put it at 7, GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

YESTERDAY WHEN I WAS YOUNG

A friend,somewhere far away in CANADA,triggered my memories of younger days..
The lyrics to the song YESTERDAY WHEN I WAS YOUNG....explains it all.LOOK UP THE TUNE ,ITS BEAUTIFUL AND BRING BACK MEMORIES.


Yesterday, when I was young,
The taste of life was sweet, as rain upon my tongue,
I teased at life, as if it were a foolish game,
The way the evening breeze may tease a candle flame

The thousand dreams I dreamed, the splendid things I planned,
I always built, alas, on weak and shifting sand,
I lived by night, and shunned the naked light of day,
And only now, I see, how the years ran away

Yesterday, when I was young,
So many happy songs were waiting to be sung,
So many wild pleasures lay in store for me,
And so much pain, my dazzled eyes refused to see

I ran so fast that time, and youth at last ran out,
I never stopped to think, what life, was all about,
And every conversation, I can now recall,
Concerned itself with me, and nothing else at all

Yesterday, the moon was blue,
And every crazy day, brought something new to do,
I used my magic age, as if it were a wand,
And never saw the worst, and the emptiness beyond

The game of love I played, with arrogance and pride,
And every flame I lit, too quickly, quickly died,
The friends I made, all seemed somehow to drift away,
And only I am left, on stage to end the play

There are so many songs in me, that won't be sung,
I feel the bitter taste, of tears upon my tongue,
The time has come for me to pay,
For yesterday, when I was young

To IPOH for work

Danish and Diya Batrishya in PENANG
Eryzal and Nurin in K.L.
Areez Adib in IPOH

Today like any other Friday is travelling day for me unless its Penang Races weekends.This weekend is 2ND Week races at Ipoh and looking foward to seeing my grandson who lives in Ipoh.I am always happy when its IPOH or K.L. races as it gives me a chance to catch up with my grandchildren,and in Penang i can always see my 2 grandchildren here.INSYAALLAH,GOD BLESS and AMEEN

MY LOOKS AT LIFE

Me in 1973.
MY LOOKS AT LIFE

Look back and say thank you life
Look forward and trust life
Look around and serve life
Look within and find life

"I asked myself 'How do I get the best out of
life?'
and something inside me said, 'Face your past without regrets.
Handle your present with confidence.
Prepare for the future without fear!'"

"Without the past,present and future our week is:
Mournday, Tearsday, Wasteday, Thirstday, Fightday,
Shatterday and Sinday.
So, allow the past ,present and future to be with you every day!"
"Life is short, so forgive quickly. Believe slowly..
Love truly. Laugh
uncontrollably. Never regret anything that
makes you happy. And have a wonderful journey.Never lose that sense of humor ,the challenge,the dreams,the laughter,the tears ,the memories and most of all the hope of a better tomorrows.Just count your blessings and never regret,live your life to the fullest,its not how long you live but the way you lived it that counts in the end.You only live but once.God Bless and Ameen

MISS THE OUTINGS

Ina and Josh enjoying our outing in penang.

Now after my treatments i am a little shy of the sun as advised my doctors.This is to ensure that my radiated area does not get exposed to the sun as it may cause problems and seeing that my work is already giving me lots of sunbath,i decided to sacrifice our outdoor outings and find other recreation and fun with my family.Sometimes its bowling nites,just walking the mall,or karaoke with friends at home.Still its fun but i do miss the outdoor outings.I am very happy lately to be in touch with a new found friend from CANADA,a perfect gentleman and a scholar all role into one.I must say welcome to my world,my CANADIAN/MALAYSIAN friend.My next review will be PET SCAN, in April 09,at WIJAYA MEDICAL CENTRE,KL.Insyaallah all will be well with family and friends saying a prayer for me.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

DO NOT DESTROY THE UNITY OF MALAYSIANS

My late father CAPT O.M.NOORDIN

This letter was written by me to Bernama.com.my and was published in the front page today 27TH FEBRUARY 08.


SAD WITH THE POLITICAL SITUATION IN MALAYSIA: It is with much sadness that I write this letter, not because of anything but because of the political situation of Malaysia. The Yang Berhormat elected (representatives) by the people are using their platform to attack one another, using words that can cause unrest among the multi racial people of our beloved country. We, the people, are sick and tired of the individuals we voted to look after our interests are using this platform to vent their anger instead of check and balance in running the country in the now trying times.

There is actually no hatred among the multi racial Malaysians, we live in peace and harmony. STOP! STOP NOW Yang Berhormat. Think before you speak, outside or inside the parliament. You are supposed to be role models that the rakyat can follow through good times and bad times. The rakyat have got to put up with you until the next General Elections. We will know what to do then but PLEASE DON'T DESTROY THE UNITY OF MALAYSIANS OUR FATHERS FOUGHT SO HARD TO PRESERVE OR GO DOWN IN HISTORY AS THE MOST HATED MALAYSIANS EVER TO BE VOTED IN PARLIAMENT. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. ENGAGE YOUR BRAIN BEFORE YOU OPEN YOUR MOUTH, YANG BERHORMAT!!!

WRITTEN BY ALEN NOORDIN

our greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising everytime we fall

So very true in the above saying,I am sure all of us had our bad and good times,its how we handle the bad times and treasure the good times is what that matters in the end.Contentment is the key word.INSYAALAH.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN

STAND BY ME

This song tells it all,GOD BLESS AND AMEEN

AFTER THE HARD WORK

After the races in PENANG,this weekend,its time to rest after the hard work.The weather on SATURDAY was hot but alhamdullilah,on SUNDAY it was nice and cool with a slight drizzle.Next weekend will be in IPOH.Insyaallah.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN

My favourite animal THE HORSES

How time flies,its been 39 years that i have been in the horse industry.Regrets i had a few but too few to mention.I will continue as long as i am able.INSYAALLAH,GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

photos with meaning and message

Not in the mood to write so came across some photos with quotes,INSYAALLAH,will be able to transfer what i am thinking to my family and friends.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

After all the anxiety of the numbness in my hand and sometimes the sole of my feet,i found out that its the side effects of the treatments.The numbness will go away,only no one knows for how long more it will be bothering me.So i decided to blank it from my mind and carry on with life and enjoy every minute of it.INSYAALLAH,GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

going into the tunnel of love MRI

Something new came up yesterday when my left hand felt numb.Saw my oncologist,and was refer to see a neurologist. After checking i was advised to do a MRI,or as i always called it my tunnel of love.(see picture).So 11.30 am 18th February i will be at the imaging dept getting ready for my MRI of the head and neck and my hands.INSYAALLAH. Family and friends your prayers is needed.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

FEELING PHILOSOPHICAL AGAIN

Whether you realize it or not, you're throwing the boomerang today. As you
may know, a boomerang is an angular club you toss away from you that
eventually returns to you. In the game of life, you throw the boomerang daily,
in the form of actions and behaviours that you send out into the world, and
that return to you at some later date -- often multiplied on the rebound.insyaallah.

You've probably heard this principle stated in different ways, including "What
goes around comes around." and "As you sow, so shall you reap."

But how does this principle apply to your day-to-day life?

Simply put, if you treat others with love and respect, you will find that others
will generally love and respect you.insyaallah

If you serve others, you will likely be served. Of course, this "law" also
applies to negative behaviors. If you are critical and judgmental, don't be
surprised when you are criticized and judged.

Before we continue, let's clear up some misconceptions about the boomerang
principle. Many people don't believe in it because they fail to view it with a
long-term perspective.

In fact, the return for your actions is seldom immediate.

There is often a long delay between your actions and the rebounding
consequences.

So, if you feel that you are living a "good life" -- that you are helping others,
being loyal to your friends, creative in business, and loving to your family --
and that you have yet to receive any great reward, don't despair.

First of all, you might be overlooking the blessings that already exist in your
life.

Or, you may consider what Ralph Waldo Emerson believed about delayed
rewards -- that your good deeds are earning compound interest in the
"universal bank," building up value over time, and that, one day, you will
receive handsome dividends. It is in this fashion that the universe rewards
persistent people who diligently plod away at their ultimate goal ... and then
(suddenly, it seems) attain outrageous success!insyaallah

People also have trouble with the boomerang principle because they look for
the return to come from the same person to whom they gave something. It
doesn't usually work that way. You'll never know where the return will be
coming from -- or when it will arrive -- but it always comes.insyaallah

Perhaps the most useful way to observe this principle in action is to look at it
"in reverse." In other words, focus on what is coming to you in life -- that will
tell you what you have been sending out.

Thus, if you aren't receiving something that you want (e.g., friendship, love or
honesty), consider the possibility that

you have been withholding these things from those around

you. What you withhold from others will be withheld from you. When you
start giving these things, you will activate the flow back to yourself.

It's really quite simple: send it out and receive it back.

So, if you want to receive love ... give love. If you want people to appreciate
you ... show your appreciation for others. And, if you want others to help
you, then lend a helping hand yourself.

You have the power to create the life you want. It all depends on how you
throw the boomerang!INSYAALLAH this may help you understand life and able to be happy always.GOD BLESS.

THE DAY THE MUSIC DIED AND THE JOY BEGAN

Don McLean’s song American Pie, with the words ‘the day the music died’, seemed to sum up the feeling
around me in the days following the confirmation by my doctor of my CANCER.(Operated on 8Th July 08 and confirmation of cancer on 18Th July 08.)

I found myself walking through thick air, with a sense of deadness within my soul. I watched the people on
the street and noticed a slowness of movement and a blank, confused, and painful look in their eyes. Fear,
anger, sadness and lethargy seemed to have found their way into the hearts and minds of most of the
people living on the planet.

Time moved forward and we began to heal and recover. But something was different; something had
changed on a deeper level within us all. We all knew that life would go on, but never quite like before.
That period of time, I really experienced just how close and connected I could feel to another person. That was the
time, that I really forgot myself and in doing so, I felt that I had come as close as I had ever been to being
human. To feel human, I realised, was to acknowledge my own soul, to question mortality and to not fear
or resent it.

The fight with CANCER, changed me in a way that I could not quite define. I was aware of a lack of energy, a
sadness; a pessimism. A shadow had descended onto and into me. Finally I pinpointed it - I had no joy.
Joy: the lightness of being. Joy to me is the quiet nature of happiness. It’s a calm happiness, a sense of
feeling right with the world and with myself. Yes, lack of joy is like having your own personal music die.
I asked myself if the world had changed so much. Was the world really a bad place? Were people really
all hostile and mean spirited? It seemed to me that everywhere I turned and everyone I spoke with
bombarded me with messages of fear.

My father’s death,in FEB of 1980 had created a sense of vulnerability within me that I had not known before. My
foundation became shaky as I realised my personal reality had been permanently changed. My ‘rock’ no
longer existed. I’m sure that I would have been fine if I had been able to deal with my grief in my own
time. But, when CANCER came into my life, it felt like the whole world had changed
and all of life had become vulnerable and fearful.

I also wondered if I was becoming too old to enjoy life as I had done in my youth. No, I wasn’t
depressed, but I must say I felt like I had become ‘beige’. Beige is a safe colour, but also a bland colour.
It never offends, but neither does it inspire. My life was feeling beige, my life had lost its music and I had
lost my joy.
I finally became so angry at myself for having CANCER.I was devastated,my world started to fall apart,i was now
feeling tired and lacking joy that was, when, I decided it was time to take some aggressive action and turn it around.
My quest for the return of my joy had begun.

I thought back over my life and recalled the person I used to be. I wondered how so much time had
passed without me realising, how far I had drifted away from the happy, positive, motivated person that I used to be.
I guess I had just let myself drift away until I ended up in this beige world. I became fascinated with how the mind influences behaviour and habits.

You think - you feel - you act. Your actions reinforce your thoughts and there you have your belief cycle.
Good nutrition is vital to gaining and maintaining physical health. Self awareness and positive perception is
vital to your emotional well being. During the six months of firstly,CHEMO,then RADIATION something else emerged within me and completely
changed my life. I discovered a sense of my spiritual self through prayers and getting closer to GOD ALMIGHTY,INSYAALLAH.

So, getting back to the time i was diagnosed with CANCER and the realisation that I had become beige and joyless. My first priority was in
getting my health and vitality back. I was determined to get on top of the cancer treatments. A few things were
already blatantly obvious and diet headed the list; I eliminated or reduced my consumption of junk food,
sugar, white flour, packaged and processed foods and saturated fats. I started to graze on food rather than
eat large meals. I ate and drank healthy, and my vitality increased as my pain decreased.
I kept a journal and I wrote affirmations which I repeated throughout the
day and prior to falling asleep.

Because I was focused on getting well, I became very aware of the many negative influences around me.
Television, radio and newspapers had to be taken lightly I could not keep my head clear with the media’s obsession
with doom and gloom.

I also had to have a few serious conversations with the people in my life about topics that I would no
longer engage in. I needed to discipline my thoughts against entertaining fear, guilt or worry.ALHAMDULLILAH,SYUKUR,there were good friends and families always being there for me in times of my needs,my boss also my best friend,my colleagues,my mum,my only brother TOMMY,my sons and daughters,my family here and overseas and most of all my tower of strength,my darling wife INA.

In 2009, about 3 weeks after ending my treatments, I was feeling like my old self again, but I was also aware that the world around me still appeared
to be thick and joyless. I couldn't help but feel that the universe needed to be healed. There seemed to be
so much negative influence in conversations. People appeared to be expecting the worst of each other. I
noticed a great deal of criticism, cynicism and sarcasm. I became concerned that the repetition and
exaggeration of negativity would expand and grow.

I had in the meantime, turned my life around. I had cleanse myself and I had reclaimed my joy. I found myself compelled
to add this energy into the atmosphere. Change does not come with one giant action. Change comes by
one person picking up one other. 2 people pick up 4 and then 4 pick up 16. One act of kindness, a word
of encouragement or simply a hug. Too often, we feel we have too little to offer so we do nothing. It only
takes one person, one voice or one hand extended to start a chain reaction.

With this understanding, I decided to put a few of my health knowledge and insights onto my blog, I
felt at the time it was only a small step, but I believed that if there was anyone out there in need of this
information, then surely I should make it available.

I am not alone in wanting peace,health and happiness or in believing that it is possible. I may have started out as only one voice
with one hand extended, but there are hands across the world now joining together. We all want health,
peace and happiness. We long to connect and belong. The spirit within will always strive to fly.

I believe that our perception of the world may have changed, but our hearts have not.We all want to live happy, healthy,safe,harmonious and treat our homes and our living to be like heaven on earth.INSYAALLAH,GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

down but not out with flu

Not feeling too good,got the FLU BUG. Hopefully,will get over the FLU, quickly.INSYAALLAH.A little fluid retention,bodyache,running nose,the works.Need to rest before the weekend.Thank God its PENANG races and no travelling involved.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.