JOSH 21 YEARS OLD TODAY

ALHAMDULLILAH SYUKUR ALL IS GOOD WITH JOSH.INSYAALLAH ALLAHSWT PANJANGKAN UMUR DAN MURAHKAN REZEKI.

ANOTHER SUNDAY PNTC RACES

Another day at the races. I am slowly but surely getting back my rhythm of many many years ago. I still to this day have got butterflies in my stomach every time i called a race. ALHAMDULLILAH all went well today

IN THE NATIONAL NEWS TODAY NST RACING PAGE

ALHAMDULLILAH A MORALE BOOSTER BEING IN THE NST SUNDAY RACING PAGE TODAY

ANOTHER WEEKEND RACECALLING

ALHAMDULLILAH SYUKUR ALL WENT WELL WITH MY CALLS AT THE RACES TOTAL RACE CALLED WAS 6 RACES FOR 2 DAYS. below are 3 races.

JOSH HAVING HIS TONSILS REMOVED

Josh check in at GLENEAGLES HOSPITAL PENANG room 1706 for his TONSILLECTOMY procedure scheduled for 10 AM 29th april 2014.Insyaallah all will be well.

THE TIME IS NOW NOT LATER NOT TOMMOROW

To All my family far and near just a short note...........THE TIME IS NOW....... If you are ever going to love me, Love me now, while I can know The sweet and tender feelings Which from true affections flow. Love me now. Do not wait until I'm gone And then have it Chiseled in marble, Sweet words on ice cold stone. If you have tender thoughts of me Please tell me now. If you wait until I am sleeping Never to awaken, There will be death between us And I won't hear you then. So, if you love me, even a little bit, Let me know it while I am living So I can treasure it.

GETTING WEAKER BY THE DAY

I am getting weaker by the day.....stress is the N01 cause of me growing weaker. I feel not the same as each day goes. Insyaallah i will try hardest to bounce back. Pray Allah swt to give me the strength,insyaallah. Latest i have loss half vision of my left eye....pray ALLAH SWT that its only temporary and that i can get back my full sight and vision on my left eye. INSYAALLAH

RACING IN PENANG MARCH 30TH 2014

16 DAYS AFTER MY OPERATION I WAS BACK WORKING.THERE WAS TRAFFIC JAM ALL OVER PENANG ISLAND WHICH CAUGHT MOST OF US BY SURPRISE.HAD 5 MINS BEFORE GOING ON AIR LIVE.JUST MANAGED TO MAKE IT. THANK YOU ALL THAT ASSISTED ESPECIALLY THE SECURITY DEPT PNTC. ALL'S WELL THAT ENDS WELL SYUKUR ALHAMDULLILAH.

AT ALL TIMES WE ARE TOGETHER

IN GOOD AND BAD TIMES,IN HEALTH AND IN SICKNESS,IN HAPPY AND SAD MOMENTS WE ARE ALWAYS TOGETHER....INA THANK YOU FOR THE STRENGTH. I LOVE YOU TILL THE DAY I DIE.

after the operation at the HDU ward

Just after the operation on Friday 14th March 2014....High Dependent Unit.,,,,SO PAINFUL alhamdullilah syukur all went well. The tubes were taken away 17/3/2014 ...today 18/3/2014 discharged but no work for 2 weeks and no heavy walking or lifting to avoid internal bleeding which can occur with the slightest pressure.Without doubt the pain level,the discomfort level on a scale of 1 to 10 i rate this a 9 out of 10.Coming from me who have gone thru the Big C treatment believe it. Credit to my doctor and all the nurses who did a wonderful and professional procedure.To my wife Sarina thank you for your love and strength without it i would rather die.Love you always.My brother Tommy and Rose,my darling Niece Julie,grandniece Crystal, grandnephew Luke your concern helps me to get better To all my children far and near, if you said a prayer for me thank you if not it doesnt matter,i know you are busy and far away and have a life of your own.To my friends,Mr and Mrs Chan.Mr and Mrs Solomon and kids, thanks for the visit,i feel blessed to have you as my friend. Sweet Marie and Louise Lawrence, thanks for the call To all my friends and there so many to list here i thank you from the bottom of my heart for your prayers and concern. Now i start the regime to get better.INSYAALLAH.

ANOTHER LIFE CHALLENGE 14TH MARCH2014

Today i am admitted to Gleneagles Medical Center Penang for a procedure called TURP. Its a painful procedure so please pray for me. Ya Allah beri lah hamba mu ini kekuatan. I am scheduled at the OT 8.30am 14th March 2014, I am now in Gleneagles room 1705 for OT prep. As in any Operation there is a very small percentage of risk. So i ask for forgiveness to my family and friends if i have in any way offended them. You come into the world alone and if you need to go you will go alone,sad as it may be thats the reality of life.)

PNTC EARLY MARCH MEETING (SAT&SUN)

This weekend i called 5 races in total. I am slowly but surely getting back my good old days of calling the races my own style.Next week i will be going to Gleneagles Penang for a complete checkup. As i wrote earlier my prostate is definately a cause for concern. Will update as and when i am able to do it.Just enjoy the r5 races (2 on Sat and 3 on Sun)below.....

JOSH STARTS WORK TODAY

Josh starts work with PNTCEC as Junior Riding Instructor. A graduate of Adv Dip Horse Management SWTAFE Melbourne . This is his first permanent job. Wish him all the best in his future undertakings. Good Luck Son and Insyaallah all be well.

I am Not Feeling Good.

To my family and friends....I am not feeling good....My prostate is giving me trouble ...Its called BPH...Benign Prostatic Hyperplasia. Medications used to work..Hytrin(terazosin)...Harnal Ocas (Tamsulosin)...not any more. What other option but to have a TURP..(Transurethral resection of the prostate), a surgical procedure that involves cutting away a section of the prostate glands. Its perform under general anaesthesia . Painful Yes ..according to many of my friends who have gone through this procedure. Effective Yes...so i see no other way than to go through this procedure soon .Will update soon.Please say a prayer for me....2008 it was the BIG C, i suffered with CHEMO,RADIATION...2014 i hope the TURP is not as severe. Insyaallah.. luv all of you even if you are never around when i need you all.

THERE IS HOPE

alhamdullilah syukur .

A SCARY SUNDAY AT TESCO

I felt like i was having a minor stroke. I almost blackout while walking at TESCO. Cold sweat came running down my forehead like rainwater. The ceiling was spinning at 100mph. I hardly could stand up. Nothing i did help,not looking up,bending down,sitting or standing. I really thought this was the end. Thank God alhamdullilah syukur,my wife Ina was not far away,she quickly put me down at the bench outside the supermarket and rush to get hot milo. By the time she came back 5 minutes later i was nearly slipping into a coma,everything was slipping away,the vision,the smell,the memory,all was like in a hazy, cloudy garden with no flowers. All i can think is to recite AL Fatehah over and over again to keep my mind from drifting further away. The milo was tasteless just hot.After sipping the hot milo,i slowly regain my vision,hearing and my other senses like my balance.The blurry vision started to get clearer.But the cold sweat never stop dripping from my forehead and my body was wet with sweat.After visiting the doctors it was established that my sugar level dropped drastically low and if not for the hot milo i would have slipped into a coma. I am not on any diet but i have lost weight. I was 104kgs in early Dec 2013 and now today i weight 89kgs. minus 15 kgs in 3months. It was a scary Sunday, i am still weak but bearable. I have taken leave from work till this Friday and see how i get on. I am on heavy dose of medications. Alhamdullilah syukur pada ALLAH SWT i am getting better. If tomorrow never comes just change the words to suit each and everyone of my family and friends. I mean it for all of my loved ones and my relatives and friends who knew me.I love all of you eternally. "If Tomorrow Never Comes"Words are changed to suit all my loved ones and dearest friends. Sometimes late at night I lie awake and watch all of you sleeping You are lost in peaceful dreams So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark And the thought crosses my mind If I never wake up in the morning Would you all ever doubt the way I feel About you in my heart If tomorrow never comes Will you know how much I loved all of you Did I try in every way to show you every day That you all my only one And if my time on earth were through And you must face this world without me Is the love I gave all in the past Gonna be enough to last If tomorrow never comes 'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life Who never knew how much I loved them Now I live with the regret That my true feelings for them never were revealed So I made a promise to myself To say each day how much you all means to me And avoid that circumstance Where there's no second chance to tell all how I feel If tomorrow never comes Will all know how much I loved you Did I try in every way to show all every day That you my only one And if my time on earth were through And all must face this world without me Is the love I gave all in the past Gonna be enough to last If tomorrow never comes So tell that someone that you love Just what you're thinking of If tomorrow never comes I LOVE ALL DEARLY.

1980 exactly 34 years ago bapak left ALFATEHAH

34 years since you left me and i had to go thru life without you....I miss you dad and i love you lots....AL FATEHAH

MAK I MISS YOU (3RD YEAR) ALFATEHAH.

If roses grow in Heaven YA ALLAH please pick a bunch for me Place them in my mother's arms And tell her they're from me. Tell her I love her and miss her And when she turns to smile Place a kiss upon her cheek And hold her for awhile.. BISMILLAHHIRRAHMANNIRRAHIM ....AL FATEHAH MAK I MISS YOU LOTS....

10 kilos loss in 3 months (food for thought)

I have loss 10 kgs in the last 3months. I have no explanation to WHY its happening. I am losing still even though i am not on diet. The stress and pressure of life and family matters have taken its toll on me.I pray to ALLAH SWT, that i can overcome this trouble times. INSYAALLAH...Where are all that i love in life they seem to be disappearing and going far away from me.Well i suppose the old saying of "you came into this world alone and when its time to go, you go alone is true.I am a change person now . Life is not easy and i am now learning at my twilight years. I rather go away and not see and experience this part of life.

A LITTLE RUSTY 2ND DAY AFTER 16 YEARS AWAY FROM CALLING RACES

Managed to complete my 2 race calls R6 and R14 at PNTC. Not great but managed to get thru,the mind is making promises the body struggling to keep. Its the memory bank not as good as many moons ago.But i have to remain optimistic that things will improve.