ESTHER'S VISIT

She has been putting off the visit to see me for fear of breaking down being a sensitive person by nature and the love family should have for one another,one time not so long ago when i collapsed at the golf course due to heat stroke and the symptoms were similar to a heart attack with the BP shooting up to a high level, Esther visited me and was very emotional to the extend of telling me in tears that if i stop breathing she will punch me till i wake up again,thats how emotional the both of us are being family.Today she is strong and give me lots of encouragement and accepted the fact that i am a little bald headed and eating is difficult but still strong in my mind.thank god and insyaallah will beat this illness.This blog is for family and friends to be updated of my condition and at the same time my personal records of my brush with the big C,AMEEN

HOW I WAS BORN INTO RACING

Picture shows my late father O.M.NOORDIN leading in his horse named FINANCIER.winning in penang sometime around 1932,and the rest as they say is history.But i am happy to be involved in the industry for the last 36 years and if i have to live my life again i will still want to be in the same industry.I have the pleasure of holding different posts in racing thru out my racing career till now.i.e.COMMENTATOR,GENARAL MANAGER of a turf club,CHIEF STIPENDIARY STEWARD OF A TURF CLUB IN EAST MALAYSIA,CHIEF HANDICAPPER ALSO OF A TURF CLUB IN EAST MALAYSIA, (the only malay for all the said post till now),assist in my late father stables in K.L.ampang racecourse from 1969 to 1973.before joining the MRA in 1974 and at present SENIOR STARTER MALAYSIA based in Penang.So most of my life is centered around racing and little wonder part of my fighting spirit to overcome my illness now is to keep working with the racing industry and be with the people i have known most of my life and insyaallah for a long time more to come.ameen.

JUST THINKING

It was just like yesterday that i was dependent on my late father and my mum.Time waits for no one. Today in times of my illness i become dependent on my doctors,the nurses,my family,my friends,my employers and last but not least my own willpower to survive and live another day longer and the natural instinct to battle on and travel the tunnel to get to the other side and win my olympic of life with nothing less than a gold medal.insyaallah ameen.

FIRST WEEKEND RACES AT IPOH AND HOME SWEET HOME

Thank God all went ok at the 1st weekend racing in Ipoh with my work.The Barrier team went about their work with no complains except for one handler whom i had to reprimand for his playful antics. On the lighter side of things i was told by my boss Mr D.Mcgillivray, that looking at me he was positively sure that i am moving along nicely thru the tunnel and definitely its a light at the end of the tunnel i will see and not an oncoming light of a train, that really made me laughed and i can tell you i have not smile let alone laughed for sometime now,i was also happy to meet up with old friends at the PKTC office,insyaallah the days of treatment is day by day getting nearer to finishing and please dont stop the prayers and encouragements as it gives me strength to battle on and beat this illness.I am posting this at the comfort of my home and i thank god. GOD BLESS.Ameen....

IPOH VISIT BY FAMILY

Arrived Ipoh around lunchtime and had a rest till time to buka puasa. My son Mohd hafiz(hairstyle similar to mine ha ha) and wife Efa who live in Ipoh came with my youngest grandchild Mohd Aareez Adib name that i gave and with that visit all my grandchildren have now seen my new look.My wife INA is always not in the photos because she is the one taking pictures.With all family and friends giving support and prayers insyaallah makes it easier for me emotionally whilst undergoing treatment and win the fight.God willing.

I AM OFF TO IPOH RACES

Today is friday and its travelling day.Ipoh is an hour or so drive from penang.My wife SARINA will as usual accompany me and will be doing the driving and right now busy with the packing,especially all the medications and the supplements to take along.We will be staying at the same hotel we stayed for many years everytime its ipoh races. i feel ok except for the tastebud is all gone and the hair not growing, the occasional pain and the up and down of the treatment but still tolerable and i look forward to seeing friends in ipoh. I thank the almighty god for giving me the strength and i thank family and friends for their support.insyaallah ameen.

MY LETTER AS POSTED IN BERNAMA.COM

Malaysians have done their democratic duty and casted their votes in the last General Election (GE) held in March 2008. Nearly six months later, those we voted are still having their own GE.To the rakyat and the world, Malaysia has not yet finished its elections.They are still talking of jumping ship and arguing about actually nothing.We the rakyat have spoken.We voted the best way we can and the results were a healthy goverment and a strong opposition -- all the correct ingredients of a healthy democratic country.We did not vote the rep because of the individual. We voted them because of the party they stood for and the coalition they represented and we thought it was the best way to send a message to all in power to wake up and do better before the next GE. Because at the end of the day, the people of different race,religion and culture have the last say period.We have a stable, proven government for over 50 years that has put Malaysia on the world map as a role model in terms of racial harmony and a safe and democratic country worth investing, and where even foreigners seek sanctuary and can earn a decent living. Yes, sure there are hiccups here and there but never for one minute we feel unsafe.So remember rakyat comes first, not your individual aspirations.So stop bickering, let the goverment of the day run the country, while the opposition can check and balance the power. We have a strong democratic parliament voted by the people of Malaysia. I can only pray and hope that Malaysians agree and support that GE is over. Let's run the country the way it should be according to the voice of the rakyat. If not, come the next GE, we will make sure we get rid of the trouble makers. Malaysia is for all born in Malaysia, tanah tumpah darah ku. Hidup Rakyat Hidup Malaysia.

STANDUP2 ZERO DEATH TOLL DURING BALIK KAMPONG HARI RAYA

Open letter to all Malaysian newspaper editors. I, rakyat Malaysia,is fed up of buying newspapers in our beloved country as the reporting is nothing but politics.What about news that can improve the quality of rakyat,the many other topics that can help the rakyat to relax their mind and keep reminded about road safety especially the coming holidays. Why is the campaign to save lives is less important than politics? First page of our newspapers is always politics. Cukup lah. Enough. Stop. We are sick and tired of being forced down our throats with garbage political news.Malaysia, I repeat is a heaven on earth. I am a Malay with some of my best friends are other Malaysians of different race and religion.We live a harmonious lifestyle in Malaysia,we have always cared for one another,there is no change now and forever,so enough nonsense and get back to being Malaysians. Government and oppositions, we are all Malaysians. Let's look at how to make Malaysia and Malaysians a role model for the world .Let's unite and concentrate on saving lives these coming holidays. Remind one another to drive carefully and we are the best advertisements. Tell your friends and family STANDUPTO ZERO ROAD DEATH.Newspapers, please do your part, stop having headlines for the wrong reasons.

GRANDCHILDREN IN PENANG CAME AVISITING

My two grandchild living in penang came to buka puasa at my house today.their names are DANISH MERICAN NOORDIN 4YRS & DHIYA BATRISHYA 8 MTHS.Their visit makes me very happy emotionally,and mentally. I am determined to be well again so that i can see them grow.insyaallah.god bless.amin.

BUSY TUESDAY

In our part of the world the most busy morning for trackwork is always on tuesdays.And today is no different.picture shows me at the barriers getting the loading organised for the 1st trial.All went well and even the weather was kind.After finishing the formalaties of paperwork and was on the way to the hospital for the usual 8days after CHEMO booster jab.The 4THfloor haemotology ward was full and all available chairs was taken up by CANCER patient having their treatment maybe some for the 1st time and some following up with their next cycle.You can always tell the first timers or otherwise.I know it was difficult the 1st time as you actually know what the effects are from reading about it and still you do it to try and get better.Thats what life is all about trying to live as long as you can its the same for all on god's earth whatever the odds are you dont argue or question you just fight.INSYAALLAH, with family and friends support and prayers i will fight to win my OLYMPICS,and GOLD is the only colour of my medal.

MONDAY BLUES blood test and injections

Had a little rest in the morning being my usual off day from work, went to GLENEAGLES HOSP PG, at 2pm went straight to the 4th floor and the nurses were ready with the tests and after meeting DR LEONG for a quick chat and told him about the mouth sores and dry lips, DR LEONG was however, pleased with the test results,and gave a booster injection with some medications and i was on the way home but not before stopping at gurney plaza to just relax my mind and chat with the owner of a small sundry shop next to the supermarket that sells everything to anything and talk empty nothings about everything and every topic under the sun and had 2 calls from old friends that really was much needed BENNY LIM AND BONNY NG , keep the prayers and encouragements coming as i really need it at this time.INSYAALLAH I will keep writing and updating the blog for all family and friends.GOD BLESS AND REMEMBER ITS NOT HOW LONG YOU LIVE BUT HOW YOU LIVED IT.

sunday at the races in kl and then home sweet home

With my barrier handlers after their briefing,before the start of race one on sunday. alhamdullilah all went well and after the last race , i just got into the car to airport and rain started to fall thank god managed to beat the rain and arrived aiport with plenty of time to rest and have a drink and light snack which tasted nothing like it looks but still got to eat to keep up with the strength.The 2nd cycle is a little tough as the mouth is super sensitive to anything hot. The flight home was superb and was home by 10pm. thank god still holding and feeling a little tired but non the worse. FAMILY AND FRIENDS keep the prayers coming insyaallah i will still keep writing and updating.GOD BLESS.

A visit from my aunt and uncle and my grandchildren at the hotel in KL

My aunty MASTORA and Uncle JIM,came to see me and gave me lots of encouragement and a much needed hug from a family member. I related the whole story to them and my determination to keep fighting and win this fight with the big C,also my son Mashoruddin and friend Yuli ,My daughter Zarina and my 2 cucus Nurin and Mamat also came to see me Thank you aunty and jim and dont stop the prayers and selamat berpuasa and for the children and my grandchildren i promised i will keep fighting till the end.insyaallah.amin

at the kl races

Went to the races as usual 1 1/2 hrs before race one which was due at 1.20pm.Checked the gear list and gave my normal briefing before the race to my barrier team and the BARRIER manners of the horses running today.One of my handlers had a kick in the wrist but thank god nothing serious. Was sent to hospital and at time of this posting has been released to go home,insyaallah.The day went all right, i pulled up ok and can do with a bit of dinner and some rest and tomorrow will be a long day with the races and then the flight home to penang. insyaallah.KEEP THE PRAYERS COMING FRIENDS AND FAMILY YOU KNOW I NEED IT.

THE TRIP TO KL RACES ON FRIDAY

Had little sleep the night before just cannot switch off, the flight etd at 11.15am and eta 1215pm. got in to the airport and was told flight delayed and will be taking off at 1215pm so the waiting was not good being fasting month and when you on treatment you need lots of water to drink as the mouth and throat gets dry very quickly.And drinking in public is a no no in MALAYSIA during fasting month. But as usual i did not let that get me down and soon was meeting some friends whom did not know of my illness were a bit shocked to see me as they arrived or some were on the way to kl.The flight was good and touchdown at 115pm and finally arrived the hotel around 245pm after visiting my late father's grave in jalan ampang. The journey was tiring but tolerable better than driving from penang which i used to love but now dont think i can stand the long drive.Cannot post a picture as i forgot to take one before boarding or on arrival but i assure you that has not change much from my last posting.So will be trying to get a good rest and be up to work at the races tomorrow as part of my fighting spirit and my regiment to get well is to keep working and be with the people i know all my life thats the racing fraternity.I just feel i am still able to contribute to the racing industry and insyaallah with prayers and encouragements from family and friends and the racing fraternity i will travel this long tunnel and come out victorious in my battle with the BIG C.I keep writing in my blog to keep me alert and keep a record of my fight and also friends and family can keep track of the latest about me insyaallah god willing i will continue to write till my time is up.I pray god to remove sufferings for all in gods earth.amin

BLOOD TEST RESULTS BEFORE GOING TO KL RACES.

Today thursday i went for a blood test to check if i am fit to travel for the KLraces and work.The test results were good and holding well, the counts showed all important levels like whitecell count,the platelet counts and haemoglobin is all within allowable limits, thank god insyaallah with all my family and friends giving me support and prayers in their own way has contributed to the strength of my determination to beat this illness and as you can see i have cut my hair to keep it looking presentable and followed the advice of my boss and friend to trim it down to no1 and i may want to keep it that way even when i am able to grow my hair back to normal as its easier to maintain and to tell you the truth i kinda like the change.Well all said and done will be on the flight 2moro and back home on sunday after the races insyaallah.I will still update when in KL as my laptop goes everywhere i go.And yes the names of the nurses at the haemotology 4th foor are AJIT PUNITA AND PENG LOO. THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE, AND FOR DR KW LEONG MY ONCO AND THE NURSES AT HIS CLINIC GOD BLESS THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE. Once again the tunnel is long and dark but i have travelled thru it for 25days and its getting nearer by the day keep praying and giving me words of encouragement and not forgetting DR LAM YEE YOON OF KLINIK LAM IPOH our panel doctor who has been a source of assurance for me and my bosses in the MALAYAN RACING ASSOCIATION COMMITEE MEMBERS, EXECUTIVES MANAGEMENTS FOR MAKING my fight easier emotionally, the racing fraternity whom all has been strong in their support of encouragements in their kind words ,my CO WORKERS AND MY 2 ASSISTANTS STARTERS AND THE BARRIER TEAM insyaallah i will beat this BIG C. AMIN.

STRANGER ON GODS EARTH

As a cancer patient undergoing CHEMO i feel like i am a stranger or a traveller on gods earth and this saying is so true for me
Be in this world as if you were a stranger or a traveller.....if you survive till the the evening,do not expect to be alive in the morning and if you survive till the morning do not expect to be alive in the evening.For me with cancer thats exactly how i feel and take it day by day the road is long and winding exactly what chemo does to you the ups and downs are very noticeable feel good then down like a yoyo and this feelings will be with me till chemo is finished then wait for the normal feelings to comeback, the hair to grow back and that will be like going thru a long tunnel no turning back till you see the light and the nightmare is over, i keep writing to keep my mind functioning because thats the only thing that keeps me fighting insyaallah, my faith in god and my family and friends and ofcourse my doctors nurses and the willpower to live an extra day and to get well again just like before the word CANCER changed my life,all i ask of family and friends dont stop praying for me to give me strength to keep fighting and pray god to remove all sufferings in this gods earth....amin.

SLEEP WAS DIFFICULT AND WHEN IT CAME FOR ABT 1HR

Sleep was difficult going into the 2nd cycle of my CHEMO treatment and while it finally came i had a beautiful dream of being with my late father OM NOORDIN. We were at the balcony of our old house in jalan puan, kg baru,KL,overlooking the football field and talking about as usual the horses especially his favourite horse PINGAT MAS .The dream may has lasted for a few minutes but his image was so clear that i wanted it to last forever his words were the same tone as when he was alive it was so real and after being gone from me for abt28 years this dream was the most closest i got to him and i wanted it to last but i woke up and the time was 5.25am and i knew i was asleep for only about an hour.I thank god that one thing good and i pray for more to come of the chemo treatment was this unforgettable dream that i am sure will be imbedded in my mind till the day i have to go.Meanwhile the tunnel is long and the road is tough but theres no turning back and friends and family dont stop your prayers because god will answer someone sometime somewhere. God bless .insyaallah

STANDUP2 ZERO DEATH TOLL DURING BALIK KAMPONG HARI RAYA

Open letter to all Malaysians.Soon the Balik Kampung exodus will begin for the Hari Raya holidays.There will be heavy traffic on the highways.Please exercise care and patience when on the road. Remember we can make a difference on the death toll. Let's all make a resolution for zero death toll.Think of your loved ones.They don't want to die yet and don't want to see you die. Remember being injured is also like being dead.So be careful Malaysians.Remember the old saying 'Biar Lambat Asalkan Selamat.' Our existence in this world is temporary, we will die one day but why not prolong it as long as possible. Yes you may say if the time is up then you cannot avoid it.But why test that time it may not be up yet but you make it happen. you may not die but cause others to die or badly injured including yourself. So 'berhati-hati bila memandu di jalan raya', we can make a difference.Already we got to battle with survival to live with ilnesses like cancer, heart attacks, diabetes and host of other life threatening illnesses.So let's start a 'Stand Up To Zero Road Death' as our slogan for the coming holidays.Remind one another at home, in the office, at the market, in the restaurant, coffee shops,anywhere. Let's talk zero road death. The best advertisement campaign is by word of mouth. Just imagine if we just do our part to remind one another to be careful. I am sure the mission will be accomplished. Live to tell your grandchildren you made a difference.

BACK TO WHERE IT ALL STARTED

Today went back to see my ENT surgeon MR SP.PALANIAPPAN to check on my ear that feels as though i am in a water tank with water seeping in to my eardrums must be due to CHEMO. I was assured by my surgeon theres nothing to worry about and was prescribed medication which after using gives you a nasty taste.I showed my surgeon the scar on my throat which is hardly noticeable and commended him on the very professional manner of the cut and stitch so much so that others have not notice if i had not told them of the removal of the lump on my neck.All said and done the 2nd cycle 2nd day is worst than the 1st cycle.,but still tolerable and thank god still better than many others and i will continue to pray for god to take away the sufferings of fellow humans round the world and to give me strength to travel this long tunnel and see the light at the end.Family and friends dont stop your words of encouragement and the sms and your prayers for me.