HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009

HERE'S WISHING FAMILIES AND FRIENDS A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009
Here's to a bright New Year,and a farewell to the old,here's to the good things coming and to the memories that we hold,we will now open a new book and the pages are blank.We are going to put words in them.The book is called a new beginning and the First chapter is NEW YEAR'S DAY.INSYAALLAH,2009 will be the start of good tidings to come and good health,happiness and wealth for all. GOD BLESS AND AMEEN

No more treatment week starts today

THANK GOD ALLAHSWT,the treatment for my illness is over for now and forever,insyaALLAH.From the day of my operation till now has been six months.2008 has been a bad year for me,having gone thru CHEMOTHERAPY AND RADIATION.Both treatment is very difficult and has its own side effects which is really difficult to tolerate.The burned marks on my neck and ears are enough to remind me of the pain and hurt that i experienced during treatment.My taste buds is only 70% back and i still have pain from the dryness and peeling of my skin in the neck where the radiation was targeted.Even sleeping has been difficult.My hair is starting to grow.I am cleared for active duties wef 5th JAN 09.and i am really looking forward to it.I pray that my scan due on the 19th jan 09 will be cleared and i will be in remission,the word remission is used for cancer patients when they recover and shows no sign of cancer cells after treatment.INSYAALLAH,families and friends please don't stop the prayers.and i am forever grateful to all of you for the strength and support given to me during my illness. I will continue to update my blog on the progress of my recovery. GOD BLESS AND AMEEN

The Last day of treatment 2008

Clearance Letter from my oncologist DR LEONG KIN WAH,that i can go back to active duty on the5th jan09

My radiation treatment card fully stamp 26 times with 3 extra totalling 29 times zap

Me and my radiation LA2 Team really professional.

The last zap note the blackened ear and reddish neck area.

26TH DECEMBER is always known thru out the world as boxing day,and INSYAALLAH,i gave my opponent the BIG C a hard left and right combination punch so hard that we all pray that its a knockout and that the big C will never get up again period.... How relieve i am to have finished my therapy combo of CHEMO AND RADIATION.Finally, come what may in the future but for now,the long,dark and scary tunnel that i journeyed thru has reach the end and i can see the bright and sunny blue skies for now and INSYAALLAH.forever.THANK YOU FAMILIES AND FRIENDS FOR PRAYING AND PLEASE DONT STOP PRAYING FOR ME AND FOR ALL WHO NEED IT. GOD BLESS AND AMEEN

christmas eve and only one more zap to go

Today,i went to MT MIRIAM for my 28th zap and tomorrow being a public holiday for Christmas day,no zap till Friday which will be my last zap (29 in total).I just cannot wait for the last zap and to come out of the dark tunnel i went thru for 6 long months of this year.INSYAALLAH,from then on its blue skies and clear days to come.
I take this opportunity to wish all my friends celebrating CHRISTMAS HOLIDAYS ALL THE VERY BEST AND IF THIS FESTIVE SEASON THE ALMIGHTY ALLOWS YOUR FRIENDS TO SHARE YOUR JOY AND PAIN PLEASE,PLEASE COUNT ME IN.HAPPY HOLIDAYS

BONUS ZAPS ONE DOWN TWO TO GO

The blue skies i pray will come soon after my journey thru the dark tunnel.


Today i went to MT MIRIAM for the start of my three bonus zaps.My right ear has started to blacken from the radiation burns and my right side neck also starts to show signs of the radiation treatment.The skin is starting to dry up and peel off.The only way to cool the skin is by applying the cream given by my doctor.Its not too bad and i can still tolerate,after all its only 2 to go,after being burned at the same spot for 27 times every MONDAY TO FRIDAY for the last 6weeks,and before that CHEMOTHERAPY POISONING MY ENTIRE BODY killing any cells that move faster than it should and not knowing if its good cells or bad cells. I must admit i have tolerated it very well.The journey thru the dark tunnel is nearly reaching the other side and then insyaallah it will be blue skies all the way.Insyaallah,the treatment cannot finish before CHRISTMAS,but will finish before the NEW YEAR,GOD WILLING. I will write my blog for the new year with only good news INSYAALLAH. Before i close this year blog i will write and tell all my families and friends how their prayers pulled me thru this 6 months of hell,pain and suffering emotionally and physically.It was not easy believe me it was hell on earth.But again, there are people suffering more than me,and i pray GOD IN HIS INFINITE MERCY REMOVE ALL PAIN IN THIS WORLD FOR EVERYONE and i thank GOD for this experience and for making me stronger to see the rest of my life out.Don't stop the prayers the fight is forever as long as i am on GOD EARTH ITS STILL VERY CHALLENGING,the real world starts after this world ends.GOD BLESS

zap bonus 3 more times

Today after waiting for 3 hours at the hospital,i was told the radiation will continue for 3 more times and will definitely ends on FRIDAY 26TH DEC 08,and the CT scan of my whole body will be on the 19th january 09 to see if i can be called in remission,the word in remission is used for cancer patient recovering from their illness as cure is never used to refer cancer patient.
Insyaallah all will be well and the long,dark, frightening journey will come to a happy ending.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

MY SON AFTER WINNING THE BAGAN JERMAL CLOSE BADMINTON TOURNAMENT DOUBLES 2008.


My son Mohd Josh decided only yesterday to enter the badminton tournament after not having any practice at all and having lay off badminton for almost a year as he was concentrating on his exams and his first love sports which is equestrian.I am very happy that he came out tops and won the trophy.I am well after the weekend races at Penang,and will be ready for my 26th zap tomorrow and if needed, the additional zaps. I will know tomorrow after meeting my doctor at MT MIRIAM HOSPITAL.InsyaALLAH,all treatment will end before the NEW YEAR.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

25th zap thursday 18th dec 08

Today is the 25th zap and my meeting with DATO DR ZAATAR and the radiation team.Decision was that MONDAY 22nd Dec will be my 26th zap and after evaluation of the team by calculating the doses,will then decide if i should have my final leg of radiation treatment with a bonus of 3 or 4 more ZAPS.Well its the time of the year for bonuses,so i wont be surprise if i still have to do the extra zaps.Come what may i know its the final leg of my journey to recovery and a few days delay wont get me down insyaallah.Family and friends keep praying for me,GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

MY SON JOSH NOW A GROWN UP

My youngest son Mohd Josh who is enjoying his school holidays has just return from a trip to K.L.He rang me at 445am this morning from the Butterworth train station to pick him up at the ferry terminal.He took the night train from K.L.after staying with his brother MASHORUDDIN house in Rawang.I realised that Josh has grown up and all too quickly.He is now going on to 16 years old and i realised that time waits for no one.Seems only yesterday that he goes outstation only with INA and me.I am in a way glad that he has grown to be a responsible teenager and able to look after himself well.The trip to K.L. was an adventure for him as it was his first train ride.Besides being a little tired,he seems to enjoy his trip to K.L.

22ND ZAP MONDAY MORNING

Today is the 22nd time i have been ZAP by the radiation machine at MOUNT MIRIAM Hospital in PENANG.I was told that at the moment the scheduled ZAPPING is for 26.Meaning there are 4 left and to end this friday 19th dec 08.I will do a blood test on wednesday and see DATO DR ZAATAR on Thursday for the final evaluation of my treatment.I pray GOD that there will be no additional Zap.Its normal for the Doctor to give additional dose to make sure of the treatment.But come what may i am prepared to go thru the final phase of my long journey to recovery.INSYAALLAH.FAMILY AND FRIENDS keep praying as i need all the strength to complete the last leg of my treatment.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

20TH ZAP AND 5 MORE TO GO.

Today is the 20th Zap and insyaALLAH,i am tolerating well.There was some anxious moments,when eating and drinking is painful.Some adjustments were made by the radiation team headed by DATO DR ZAATAR,on the area to ZAP,took care of the problem.Now i only have to cope with the dryness.If everything goes according to plan, there will only be 5 more ZAPPING days to go.Tomorrow being FRIDAY my travelling day ZAPPING will be early in the morning.Family and Friends keep praying for me.The long journey to recovery is nearing the end.GOD WILLING AND GOD BLESS,AMEEN

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA

I WISH ALL MY MUSLIM FRIENDS AND FAMILY SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA AND MAY ALLAH SWT BLESS AND KEEP YOU IN GOOD HEALTH.INSYA ALLAH.
Today, no zapping as its a holiday for the RADIATION TEAM at MT MIRIAM.Its a blessing as i will have time to recover from last week's zapping. Lost my voice and still have difficulty in swallowing food and even drinks.Its like trying to swallow down a rubber ball.Insyaallah i will tolerate as i only have 8 more ZAPS to go.I am still physically and mentally strong.As they say in racing terminology "going into the straight and with 400 metres to go, is still in front travelling well on the bit".Insya ALLAH,GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.

17th zap and 8 more to go

Today is the 17th zap and insya ALLAH only 8 more to go.This weekend is KL races and i will be taking a flight this afternoon.Its going to be a 3 day rest from zapping as Monday will be HARI RAYA HAJI.Zapping will continue next Tuesday and the last Zap is expected to be on the 18TH DECEMBER 08.So far i am tolerating it well.A little painful when swallowing but otherwise no major problems.The road to recovery is moving with GODSPEED.I am looking forward to recuperating from my seven months of battling with the CHEMOTHERAPY and RADIATION treatment for the big C.when the last day of radiation expected to be abt two weeks from now.InsyaALLAH,GOD BLESS,AMEEN.

TUESDAY BARRIER TRIAL DAY and 14thZAP

Today is another busy day on the track with 16 horses taking part in the trials.All went well and then in the afternoon its zapping time.My voice is starting to disappear and swallowing is becoming a little more painful.This side effect insyaALLAH, will be temporary.My journey to recovery is getting nearer by the day.GOD BLESS AND AMEEN

EARLY MONDAY MORNING ZAP13 down 12 to go

Today as in other MONDAYS since i started RADIOTHERAPY at MT MIRIAM HOSPITAL
on13Th Nov08,i was ready to be ZAP at room LA2,as early as 7am. After putting in my card and waiting for about 15 minutes i was called in to be ZAP.The radiologist and nurse prepares me for the machine. Marking the area for zapping and clearing the room, the familiar sound of the machine can be heard and i knew then another 2minutes and i will be done.Today was no different to the other MONDAY TO FRIDAY routine,except may be for the timing,as TUESDAY,WEDNESDAY and THURSDAY i am zapped in the afternoon after work, MONDAY AND FRIDAY in the early mornings.The effect of the zapping is very noticeable now,but INSYAALLAH still tolerable.EATING AND DRINKING is a little painful on one side of the throat.THE CONSOLATION IS THAT 13 DOWN AND 12 MORE TO GO, i pray GOD SWT,that there will be no additional doses after 25 times.I know family and friends will keep praying for me and that the journey to recovery is almost over and moving with GODSPEED.INSYA ALLAH,GOD BLESS AND AMEEN.