FAMILY IN AUSTRALIA

My niece JULIE and me(her grandma CHE RAJAH NOORDIN is my father's sister) trip to langkawi in early july.08


julie's daughter crystal and me in langkawi july 08


I have been in constant touch with my niece JULIE and she has been a source of strength and a shoulder to cry on ever since my illness,and on the eve of hari raya adil fitri and my 3rd cycle of chemo treatment i like to dedicate this posting to her and her 2 children crystal and luke. JULIE thank you for being strong and understanding to my sobbings and my telling you of my pain and my side effects and knowing you are so far away but just listening to your voice is indeed very calming and medicine enough.ALL I CAN SAY IS THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE FOR ME.INSYAALLAH GOD WILLING WE WILL MEET SOON IN BETTER TIMES JUST LIKE LANGKAWI BEFORE MY ILLNESS. LOTS OF LOVE JULIE TO YOU ,CRYSTAL AND LUKE.

3rd CHEMO AND RAYA EVE 30TH SEPT 08

from left to right are my angels PUNITA,AJI, PRIYA (using red) AND PENG LOO,the nurses at the chemo lounge

the other 2 angels in Dr.Leong's clinic 4th floor Mable Keay and Saw Chin ever so efficient.





The 4th floor wow it sounds like what the political critics and politicians always refer to as the happening place but my 4th floor at gleneagles penang is far from politics but a place for healing and team DR.KW LEONG(photo not available YET) MABEL KEAY,SAW CHIN who never fail to give you a helping hand at the clinic, the ever dedicated nurses,PUNITA,AJI,PENG LOO AND PRIYA.THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE. The 2 photos shows the chairs were empty when i arrived early in the morning ready for my chemo session. 1st on the appointment list today,and being told its a full day with the coming public holidays and futhermore DR LEONG is known to be early.
I arrived at 745AM and waited for my turn for checkup ,then to the CHEMO LOUNGE,WE WONT CALL IT A WARD OK,IT IS BETTER,(COSY) then DR LEONG himself puts in an IV WITH JUNCTIONS AND CHEMO STARTS AT 9AM.expected to finish at 530pm.It has been raining almost non stop since yesterday,just like the 1st chemo on the 18th aug 08 and as i said earlier insyaallah its getting nearer the journey thru the dark tunnel,even if i cannot yet see the end but i can most certainly start to smell the end. 2MORO is HARI RAYA, FAMILY AND FRIENDS SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL FITRI 2008 and we thank god that there are more good people than bad people in this world(That is why there are more people outside jail then in jail all over the world) and good always overcome evil and that illness can be cured with the trust in your doctor and his team, prayers and encouragements from all of you.god bless insyaallah.

BLOOD TEST DAY MONDAY 1 DAY B4 CHEMO 2DAYS B4 RAYA

Dont i look like i am dangerous and ready for action with my mask, but actually i am bright and early ready to go for my blood test at the 4th floor of GLENEAGLES HOSPITAL PENANG. As a chemo patient i am told to take precautions at the hospital as i can easily be contacted with bacteria and viruses because chemo tends to lower the immune system.I get alot of stares from other drivers alongside my car at the traffic lights. I just laugh to myself and say cant blame them nowadays with so much crime on the road at least i feel safe as no robber would think of robbing a person with covered face, they may think i am a friend and doing what they plan to do, hey.... thats an idea maybe we can all use mask to deter the robbers, all right i am only joking anyway the test results is back and i can continue with CHEMO 2moro at 8am and will go thru my 3rd cycle of 8 hrs of my Chemo medications. thank god, the days of treatment are getting nearer to finishing insyaallah god willing i will be able to travel the tunnel and i still cant see the light but i know the other side is much nearer then the day i started the journey.Family and friends dont stop the encouragements and prayers.thank you and ameen.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA 2008

To FAMILY and FRIENDS
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL FITRI FROM ALEN NOORDIN,INA & JOSH
GOD BLESS INSYAALLAH.

JUST THINKING OF THE DAY I CALLED MY FIRST RACE

Picture of me in the commentator box calling my first race.
Today is a sunday and not being at the races in IPOH sort of makes me bored,so much so that i looked for some treasured photos and came up with one of my favourite memories,that is the day i called my first race in 1972 in PENANG.I was sweating alot and it even clogged up my binoculars,a canon 7x50 wide angle and in those days there were no live feed from the TV to help you.Imagine that the 6 furlongs race was run in 1 min 12 secs and to me it was like eternity.Thank god i called the correct horses and from then on it became a career and i went on calling races for the next 12 years b4 taking up new positions in EAST MALAYSIA.I came back in 1994 and rejoined as commentator/starter and till my present post Senior Starter.I never had a teacher to teach me race calling but 3 person attributed to giving me pointers are JIM CHADWICK,DATO TERRY LEE,AND CHRIS LEE.I in fact worked together with chris lee sharing out calling the races in PENANG,IPOH,KL & SINGAPORE for 12 years.I learned the finer points of horsemanship from my late father who was a racehorse trainer.I pray god, insyaallah,i will overcome my illness and still be working for many more years.GOD BLESS.

WHY I KEEP WRITING ABOUT MALAYSIA

PICTURE OF MY LATE FATHER CAPT. O.M. NOORDIN
I keep writing to bernama.com and if the letter is published then i will post it in my blog and the reason being is that, i was brought up to love our beloved heaven on earth MALAYSIA.TANAH TUMPAH DARAHKU,by my late father O.M.NOORDIN. He was born into a well known family in PENANG so much so that a street was named after our family - NOORDIN STREET.During the EMERGENCY period where malaya then was faced with threats from the communist, he gave up material wealth to join the famous unit called the HOME GUARDS and were instrumental in building NEW VILLAGES,and also maintaining security for the villages,before he became a racehorse trainer. He was always very proud of our country and always emotional especially during hari MERDEKA.He would sit me down and gave a full account of the time he served the country,and being of mixed parentage has always thought me the true meaning of harmonious and peaceful living. I was also instilled in me the aspect of being patriotic and having seen the political unstability lately and the theatrical antics of the elected politicians have compelled me to voice out my two bit opinions and especially now with having to battle with an illness of serious note called CANCER.This illness and my determination to get well again no matter what the odds are, opened up a new avenue for me to keep reminded of my titanic battle and for updating family and friends by way of setting up my own blog and at the same time able to express my feelings and keep up the NOORDIN FAMILY tradition of being loyal to the country. I pray god that common sense will prevail and all political parties and their reps will think before talking so that the peace and harmony that we are accustomed to during our parents days and as far back as we can remember are preserved and appreciated by one and all.insyaallah.GOD BLESS.

NOT IN MY WILDEST DREAM

Picture of me present day and me 2 and 3 years old.
Never in my wildest dream that one day in the year 2008 and in my old age, i would battle with the Big C. I am a normal healthy kid growing up just like anybody else enjoying the CARELESS and CAREFREE lifestyle and underestimating how easily we can be sick with all kind of illness.(note both lifestyle starts with the letter C ) let me tell all my family and friends,ever since i was told i have the big C, the physical and emotional changes are difficult to live with. Feeling sad, weak,helpless and trapped are only a few of the obstacles i am facing, knowing that getting back to normal wont happen overnight and travelling thru the long journey,i realised that i have to hopefully, only temporarily give up many things that i used to do, like for instance GOLF,which i enjoyed very much and once you are in the dark tunnel there is no turning back and my only thoughts are to beat this illness and get rid of it from my body.insyaallah.god willing.I find writing, then posting it on the blog give me lots of peace and at the sametime act as a journal and memoirs for me, my family and friends. I never knew then that writing can be therapeutic to me now. I will keep on writing and posting my blog and voicing out my feelings for my country MALAYSIA, and updating my battle with the BIG C Hope you like the music i put in, it has a calming effect on me the title is WELCOME TO MY WORLD,sung by the legendary JIM REEVES. GOD BLESS, AMEEN

LETTER AS POSTED IN BERNAMA.COM 26/09/08

Dear Family and Friends please note that all letters pertaining to our beloved MALAYSIA are published in bernama.com page before they are posted in my blog.Even though i am going thru a dark tunnel with my battle with the BIG C but i love my MALAYSIA TOO MUCH NOT TO EXPRESS MY FEELINGS AND MY THOUGHTS AS A MALAYSIAN.
It is with much sadness and disappointment that Malaysia we all love is now becoming a never ending stage show of political drama.Since the March GE till now, the rakyat of different race,religion and culture whom have lived harmoniously all this while have been forced down their throat with political garbage.I am sure most of the rakyat are fed up with news on political bickering in the newspapers and on television.I am shocked that after the GE which the rakyat have spoken through the democratic process, we are now hearing that some elected reps may jump to another party etc etc. If it is true then these elected reps have no morals whatsoever. How can you be our leaders when you go against the basic principles and manifesto of your party that you were chosen to stand for election? Why was it good then and not now.So let's stop all this talk and once and for all with all BN YB making their stand known. It's not difficult, just make a press conference together and once and for all stop the political garbage and get on with running the country and give the rakyat a peace of mind. Or,is there any truth in what is being said about the crossover plan? What better Hari Raya gift can there be for the rakyat than a peace of mind. I think the elected reps owe the rakyat an explanation or an assurance, after all we put you there and don't forget we voted you for the party and the principles that you believed. Hidup Rakyat Hidup Malaysia Tanah Tumpah Darahku

FRIDAY MORNING BLUES 26/9/08

Photo taken today.
6 more days to 8 hrs of CHEMO of TAXOTERE & CISPLATIN,and 7days to HARI RAYA,and the pain in the gums and tooth is intense no sleep at all last night. Pray god that i will get some sort of rest later.The cramps are almost unbearable but thank god its only for about 5 mins and usually comes between 1am to 3am, but i now found a way to stop the pain by soaking my feet in hot water at the right temperature and pain will subside gradually and managed to bring 15minutes to about 5 mins and the frequency from 5 times to 1 time a day.I tried soaking b4 the pain but it did not work.So now i wait for the pain then soak,it works.insyaallah god willing I can live with that.So again i am writing this blog so that there be a record for me and my family,hoping my grandchildren will know their grandad is a strong minded and just like how i want them to be when they grow up and in this concrete jungle exposed to so many dangers in life especially illness,they must learn to live in moderation and be health concious and to all my friends, we can learn that health is everything and other material things are secondary.One thing for me being sick with BIG C is i am able to remind all those that read my blog its not how long you live but how you live your life, the quality of life, live it well there is no 2nd chance you only live but once,so keep the prayers coming family and friends and i promise all of you i will keep fighting and come out of the tunnel so that i can thank each and everyone of you personally.insyaalah god bless and may the ALMIGHTY GOD remove all illness and pain for all on GOD EARTH AMEEN

THURSDAY 25TH SEPT 7DAYS TO CHEMO

Photo taken this morning.
Today is another lousy day.Not too bad 3 down days in a week and the other 4 are so so days,thats the life of a person going thru chemo anyway thats how i feel,been on antibiotics since yesterday due to the inflamation of the gums and bad toothache,nothing new as far as the word ending with ache,you name it i have it,thank god wont be doing any travelling this week,nothing like complete rest and strengthening the immune system to be ready for chemo in 7 days,hari raya in 8 days.I have been watching comedy movies to keep me laughing and maintaning my sense of humour as i believe laughter attracts joy,releases negativity and leads to miraculous cures,i also strongly believe the human mind if used correctly can, demonstrate the unfathhomable power and unlimited potential to overcome anything.insyaallah,GOD BLESS,ameen.

MY HARI RAYA WISH AS POSTED 24/O9/O8 IN BERNAMA.COM

Letter to YDH Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad. I am a great fan of yourself Tun. For what you have done for Malaysia is definitely to be admired and respected.Tun, please open the door to Pak Lah. As an elderly statesman and who appointed YAB Pak Lah as your successor, I respectfully plead for Tun to have a private talk, without the fanfare and thrash out the problems, and show us that you can work together to strengthen Umno and Malaysia. I am sure this will be the shortest cut to stabilising the country and give everybody, meaning all politicians and rakyat a peace of mind.Whatever difference in opinion can be sorted out behind closed door and not in public, which gives us the rakyat no peace of mind. With the coming Hari Raya and now being the holy month of Ramadan what better timing can it be, where Muslims all over the world are willing to forgive and forget. Show the rakyat that Tun who has done so much for Malaysia and YAB Pak Lah the present PM chosen by Tun can and will work together for the continued stability of Barisan Nasional, Umno and our beloved Tanah Tumpah Darahku Malaysia. Then only in my humble opinion can the government function effectively and the opposition will be able to carry on with their role and and let the rakyat decide on the next GE how they are going to vote.My wish for Hari Raya this year is for my leaders to come together as one and lead this heaven on earth country of ours, Malaysia to be like before for the last 51 years of blissful, harmonious and safe for all Rakyat Malaysia. InsyaAllah amin.

THIS WEEKEND IPOH RACES

My next chemo cycle being my 3rd will be on the 30th sept 08 on the eve of HARI RAYA,where i have to endure 8hrs of patience in the 4th floor of GLENEAGLES HOSPITAL PENANG starting from 830am till around 430 in the evening.Since yesterday i have been experiencing pain in the mouth especially my gums and also muscle cramps and toothache.Today my ever strong and dear wife INA,has gone to collect my medications from my doctor and insyaallah god willing the pain will be tolerable.I am not going for the 2nd weekend of the IPOH races as DR KW LEONG my oncologist has advised complete rest and relaxation.My boss MR.David Mcgillvray has been informed and i have also made arrangements for my 2 assistant starters Mr Elangovan and Mr Harichandran to cover my duties thru the deputy chief stipe Mr Soo Lai Kwok.I pray god that i will have the strength to go thru my 3rd cycle just as the 1st 2 chemos.The days of my battle with the BIG C is getting nearer to finishing and the long dark tunnel is getting nearer for me to see the light.Family and friends dont stop the encouragements and prayers,insyaallah ameen.

TUESDAY 23RD SEPT

Today is a feeling down day,as usual got up early and was on the track for the trials.After paperwork formalities came home about 11am and felt tightness around the neck area where the operation was done.Pray that it is because the nerves around the op area is starting to heal. Anyway the doctors appointment is at 3pm and will know more by then.There is no taste in anything i drink or eat, hairloss and the normal really painful cramps are still persistently there.The nauseating is always a bothersome, but with medications it has always gone away quickly.If need be will update after session with doctor KWLEONG at 3pm.Family and friends dont stop the prayers for me insyaallah it will give the strength to battle on.ameen.just back from my doctors and thank god after DR KWLEONG had alook and investigated, he is of the opinion its the post op effect and there is no danger of a new lump on the neck,but has advised complete rest and relaxation.insyaallah i will follow his advice and ameen.

ESTHER'S VISIT

She has been putting off the visit to see me for fear of breaking down being a sensitive person by nature and the love family should have for one another,one time not so long ago when i collapsed at the golf course due to heat stroke and the symptoms were similar to a heart attack with the BP shooting up to a high level, Esther visited me and was very emotional to the extend of telling me in tears that if i stop breathing she will punch me till i wake up again,thats how emotional the both of us are being family.Today she is strong and give me lots of encouragement and accepted the fact that i am a little bald headed and eating is difficult but still strong in my mind.thank god and insyaallah will beat this illness.This blog is for family and friends to be updated of my condition and at the same time my personal records of my brush with the big C,AMEEN

HOW I WAS BORN INTO RACING

Picture shows my late father O.M.NOORDIN leading in his horse named FINANCIER.winning in penang sometime around 1932,and the rest as they say is history.But i am happy to be involved in the industry for the last 36 years and if i have to live my life again i will still want to be in the same industry.I have the pleasure of holding different posts in racing thru out my racing career till now.i.e.COMMENTATOR,GENARAL MANAGER of a turf club,CHIEF STIPENDIARY STEWARD OF A TURF CLUB IN EAST MALAYSIA,CHIEF HANDICAPPER ALSO OF A TURF CLUB IN EAST MALAYSIA, (the only malay for all the said post till now),assist in my late father stables in K.L.ampang racecourse from 1969 to 1973.before joining the MRA in 1974 and at present SENIOR STARTER MALAYSIA based in Penang.So most of my life is centered around racing and little wonder part of my fighting spirit to overcome my illness now is to keep working with the racing industry and be with the people i have known most of my life and insyaallah for a long time more to come.ameen.

JUST THINKING

It was just like yesterday that i was dependent on my late father and my mum.Time waits for no one. Today in times of my illness i become dependent on my doctors,the nurses,my family,my friends,my employers and last but not least my own willpower to survive and live another day longer and the natural instinct to battle on and travel the tunnel to get to the other side and win my olympic of life with nothing less than a gold medal.insyaallah ameen.

FIRST WEEKEND RACES AT IPOH AND HOME SWEET HOME

Thank God all went ok at the 1st weekend racing in Ipoh with my work.The Barrier team went about their work with no complains except for one handler whom i had to reprimand for his playful antics. On the lighter side of things i was told by my boss Mr D.Mcgillivray, that looking at me he was positively sure that i am moving along nicely thru the tunnel and definitely its a light at the end of the tunnel i will see and not an oncoming light of a train, that really made me laughed and i can tell you i have not smile let alone laughed for sometime now,i was also happy to meet up with old friends at the PKTC office,insyaallah the days of treatment is day by day getting nearer to finishing and please dont stop the prayers and encouragements as it gives me strength to battle on and beat this illness.I am posting this at the comfort of my home and i thank god. GOD BLESS.Ameen....

IPOH VISIT BY FAMILY

Arrived Ipoh around lunchtime and had a rest till time to buka puasa. My son Mohd hafiz(hairstyle similar to mine ha ha) and wife Efa who live in Ipoh came with my youngest grandchild Mohd Aareez Adib name that i gave and with that visit all my grandchildren have now seen my new look.My wife INA is always not in the photos because she is the one taking pictures.With all family and friends giving support and prayers insyaallah makes it easier for me emotionally whilst undergoing treatment and win the fight.God willing.

I AM OFF TO IPOH RACES

Today is friday and its travelling day.Ipoh is an hour or so drive from penang.My wife SARINA will as usual accompany me and will be doing the driving and right now busy with the packing,especially all the medications and the supplements to take along.We will be staying at the same hotel we stayed for many years everytime its ipoh races. i feel ok except for the tastebud is all gone and the hair not growing, the occasional pain and the up and down of the treatment but still tolerable and i look forward to seeing friends in ipoh. I thank the almighty god for giving me the strength and i thank family and friends for their support.insyaallah ameen.

MY LETTER AS POSTED IN BERNAMA.COM

Malaysians have done their democratic duty and casted their votes in the last General Election (GE) held in March 2008. Nearly six months later, those we voted are still having their own GE.To the rakyat and the world, Malaysia has not yet finished its elections.They are still talking of jumping ship and arguing about actually nothing.We the rakyat have spoken.We voted the best way we can and the results were a healthy goverment and a strong opposition -- all the correct ingredients of a healthy democratic country.We did not vote the rep because of the individual. We voted them because of the party they stood for and the coalition they represented and we thought it was the best way to send a message to all in power to wake up and do better before the next GE. Because at the end of the day, the people of different race,religion and culture have the last say period.We have a stable, proven government for over 50 years that has put Malaysia on the world map as a role model in terms of racial harmony and a safe and democratic country worth investing, and where even foreigners seek sanctuary and can earn a decent living. Yes, sure there are hiccups here and there but never for one minute we feel unsafe.So remember rakyat comes first, not your individual aspirations.So stop bickering, let the goverment of the day run the country, while the opposition can check and balance the power. We have a strong democratic parliament voted by the people of Malaysia. I can only pray and hope that Malaysians agree and support that GE is over. Let's run the country the way it should be according to the voice of the rakyat. If not, come the next GE, we will make sure we get rid of the trouble makers. Malaysia is for all born in Malaysia, tanah tumpah darah ku. Hidup Rakyat Hidup Malaysia.

STANDUP2 ZERO DEATH TOLL DURING BALIK KAMPONG HARI RAYA

Open letter to all Malaysian newspaper editors. I, rakyat Malaysia,is fed up of buying newspapers in our beloved country as the reporting is nothing but politics.What about news that can improve the quality of rakyat,the many other topics that can help the rakyat to relax their mind and keep reminded about road safety especially the coming holidays. Why is the campaign to save lives is less important than politics? First page of our newspapers is always politics. Cukup lah. Enough. Stop. We are sick and tired of being forced down our throats with garbage political news.Malaysia, I repeat is a heaven on earth. I am a Malay with some of my best friends are other Malaysians of different race and religion.We live a harmonious lifestyle in Malaysia,we have always cared for one another,there is no change now and forever,so enough nonsense and get back to being Malaysians. Government and oppositions, we are all Malaysians. Let's look at how to make Malaysia and Malaysians a role model for the world .Let's unite and concentrate on saving lives these coming holidays. Remind one another to drive carefully and we are the best advertisements. Tell your friends and family STANDUPTO ZERO ROAD DEATH.Newspapers, please do your part, stop having headlines for the wrong reasons.

GRANDCHILDREN IN PENANG CAME AVISITING

My two grandchild living in penang came to buka puasa at my house today.their names are DANISH MERICAN NOORDIN 4YRS & DHIYA BATRISHYA 8 MTHS.Their visit makes me very happy emotionally,and mentally. I am determined to be well again so that i can see them grow.insyaallah.god bless.amin.

BUSY TUESDAY

In our part of the world the most busy morning for trackwork is always on tuesdays.And today is no different.picture shows me at the barriers getting the loading organised for the 1st trial.All went well and even the weather was kind.After finishing the formalaties of paperwork and was on the way to the hospital for the usual 8days after CHEMO booster jab.The 4THfloor haemotology ward was full and all available chairs was taken up by CANCER patient having their treatment maybe some for the 1st time and some following up with their next cycle.You can always tell the first timers or otherwise.I know it was difficult the 1st time as you actually know what the effects are from reading about it and still you do it to try and get better.Thats what life is all about trying to live as long as you can its the same for all on god's earth whatever the odds are you dont argue or question you just fight.INSYAALLAH, with family and friends support and prayers i will fight to win my OLYMPICS,and GOLD is the only colour of my medal.

MONDAY BLUES blood test and injections

Had a little rest in the morning being my usual off day from work, went to GLENEAGLES HOSP PG, at 2pm went straight to the 4th floor and the nurses were ready with the tests and after meeting DR LEONG for a quick chat and told him about the mouth sores and dry lips, DR LEONG was however, pleased with the test results,and gave a booster injection with some medications and i was on the way home but not before stopping at gurney plaza to just relax my mind and chat with the owner of a small sundry shop next to the supermarket that sells everything to anything and talk empty nothings about everything and every topic under the sun and had 2 calls from old friends that really was much needed BENNY LIM AND BONNY NG , keep the prayers and encouragements coming as i really need it at this time.INSYAALLAH I will keep writing and updating the blog for all family and friends.GOD BLESS AND REMEMBER ITS NOT HOW LONG YOU LIVE BUT HOW YOU LIVED IT.

sunday at the races in kl and then home sweet home

With my barrier handlers after their briefing,before the start of race one on sunday. alhamdullilah all went well and after the last race , i just got into the car to airport and rain started to fall thank god managed to beat the rain and arrived aiport with plenty of time to rest and have a drink and light snack which tasted nothing like it looks but still got to eat to keep up with the strength.The 2nd cycle is a little tough as the mouth is super sensitive to anything hot. The flight home was superb and was home by 10pm. thank god still holding and feeling a little tired but non the worse. FAMILY AND FRIENDS keep the prayers coming insyaallah i will still keep writing and updating.GOD BLESS.

A visit from my aunt and uncle and my grandchildren at the hotel in KL

My aunty MASTORA and Uncle JIM,came to see me and gave me lots of encouragement and a much needed hug from a family member. I related the whole story to them and my determination to keep fighting and win this fight with the big C,also my son Mashoruddin and friend Yuli ,My daughter Zarina and my 2 cucus Nurin and Mamat also came to see me Thank you aunty and jim and dont stop the prayers and selamat berpuasa and for the children and my grandchildren i promised i will keep fighting till the end.insyaallah.amin

at the kl races

Went to the races as usual 1 1/2 hrs before race one which was due at 1.20pm.Checked the gear list and gave my normal briefing before the race to my barrier team and the BARRIER manners of the horses running today.One of my handlers had a kick in the wrist but thank god nothing serious. Was sent to hospital and at time of this posting has been released to go home,insyaallah.The day went all right, i pulled up ok and can do with a bit of dinner and some rest and tomorrow will be a long day with the races and then the flight home to penang. insyaallah.KEEP THE PRAYERS COMING FRIENDS AND FAMILY YOU KNOW I NEED IT.

THE TRIP TO KL RACES ON FRIDAY

Had little sleep the night before just cannot switch off, the flight etd at 11.15am and eta 1215pm. got in to the airport and was told flight delayed and will be taking off at 1215pm so the waiting was not good being fasting month and when you on treatment you need lots of water to drink as the mouth and throat gets dry very quickly.And drinking in public is a no no in MALAYSIA during fasting month. But as usual i did not let that get me down and soon was meeting some friends whom did not know of my illness were a bit shocked to see me as they arrived or some were on the way to kl.The flight was good and touchdown at 115pm and finally arrived the hotel around 245pm after visiting my late father's grave in jalan ampang. The journey was tiring but tolerable better than driving from penang which i used to love but now dont think i can stand the long drive.Cannot post a picture as i forgot to take one before boarding or on arrival but i assure you that has not change much from my last posting.So will be trying to get a good rest and be up to work at the races tomorrow as part of my fighting spirit and my regiment to get well is to keep working and be with the people i know all my life thats the racing fraternity.I just feel i am still able to contribute to the racing industry and insyaallah with prayers and encouragements from family and friends and the racing fraternity i will travel this long tunnel and come out victorious in my battle with the BIG C.I keep writing in my blog to keep me alert and keep a record of my fight and also friends and family can keep track of the latest about me insyaallah god willing i will continue to write till my time is up.I pray god to remove sufferings for all in gods earth.amin

BLOOD TEST RESULTS BEFORE GOING TO KL RACES.

Today thursday i went for a blood test to check if i am fit to travel for the KLraces and work.The test results were good and holding well, the counts showed all important levels like whitecell count,the platelet counts and haemoglobin is all within allowable limits, thank god insyaallah with all my family and friends giving me support and prayers in their own way has contributed to the strength of my determination to beat this illness and as you can see i have cut my hair to keep it looking presentable and followed the advice of my boss and friend to trim it down to no1 and i may want to keep it that way even when i am able to grow my hair back to normal as its easier to maintain and to tell you the truth i kinda like the change.Well all said and done will be on the flight 2moro and back home on sunday after the races insyaallah.I will still update when in KL as my laptop goes everywhere i go.And yes the names of the nurses at the haemotology 4th foor are AJIT PUNITA AND PENG LOO. THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE, AND FOR DR KW LEONG MY ONCO AND THE NURSES AT HIS CLINIC GOD BLESS THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE. Once again the tunnel is long and dark but i have travelled thru it for 25days and its getting nearer by the day keep praying and giving me words of encouragement and not forgetting DR LAM YEE YOON OF KLINIK LAM IPOH our panel doctor who has been a source of assurance for me and my bosses in the MALAYAN RACING ASSOCIATION COMMITEE MEMBERS, EXECUTIVES MANAGEMENTS FOR MAKING my fight easier emotionally, the racing fraternity whom all has been strong in their support of encouragements in their kind words ,my CO WORKERS AND MY 2 ASSISTANTS STARTERS AND THE BARRIER TEAM insyaallah i will beat this BIG C. AMIN.

STRANGER ON GODS EARTH

As a cancer patient undergoing CHEMO i feel like i am a stranger or a traveller on gods earth and this saying is so true for me
Be in this world as if you were a stranger or a traveller.....if you survive till the the evening,do not expect to be alive in the morning and if you survive till the morning do not expect to be alive in the evening.For me with cancer thats exactly how i feel and take it day by day the road is long and winding exactly what chemo does to you the ups and downs are very noticeable feel good then down like a yoyo and this feelings will be with me till chemo is finished then wait for the normal feelings to comeback, the hair to grow back and that will be like going thru a long tunnel no turning back till you see the light and the nightmare is over, i keep writing to keep my mind functioning because thats the only thing that keeps me fighting insyaallah, my faith in god and my family and friends and ofcourse my doctors nurses and the willpower to live an extra day and to get well again just like before the word CANCER changed my life,all i ask of family and friends dont stop praying for me to give me strength to keep fighting and pray god to remove all sufferings in this gods earth....amin.

SLEEP WAS DIFFICULT AND WHEN IT CAME FOR ABT 1HR

Sleep was difficult going into the 2nd cycle of my CHEMO treatment and while it finally came i had a beautiful dream of being with my late father OM NOORDIN. We were at the balcony of our old house in jalan puan, kg baru,KL,overlooking the football field and talking about as usual the horses especially his favourite horse PINGAT MAS .The dream may has lasted for a few minutes but his image was so clear that i wanted it to last forever his words were the same tone as when he was alive it was so real and after being gone from me for abt28 years this dream was the most closest i got to him and i wanted it to last but i woke up and the time was 5.25am and i knew i was asleep for only about an hour.I thank god that one thing good and i pray for more to come of the chemo treatment was this unforgettable dream that i am sure will be imbedded in my mind till the day i have to go.Meanwhile the tunnel is long and the road is tough but theres no turning back and friends and family dont stop your prayers because god will answer someone sometime somewhere. God bless .insyaallah

STANDUP2 ZERO DEATH TOLL DURING BALIK KAMPONG HARI RAYA

Open letter to all Malaysians.Soon the Balik Kampung exodus will begin for the Hari Raya holidays.There will be heavy traffic on the highways.Please exercise care and patience when on the road. Remember we can make a difference on the death toll. Let's all make a resolution for zero death toll.Think of your loved ones.They don't want to die yet and don't want to see you die. Remember being injured is also like being dead.So be careful Malaysians.Remember the old saying 'Biar Lambat Asalkan Selamat.' Our existence in this world is temporary, we will die one day but why not prolong it as long as possible. Yes you may say if the time is up then you cannot avoid it.But why test that time it may not be up yet but you make it happen. you may not die but cause others to die or badly injured including yourself. So 'berhati-hati bila memandu di jalan raya', we can make a difference.Already we got to battle with survival to live with ilnesses like cancer, heart attacks, diabetes and host of other life threatening illnesses.So let's start a 'Stand Up To Zero Road Death' as our slogan for the coming holidays.Remind one another at home, in the office, at the market, in the restaurant, coffee shops,anywhere. Let's talk zero road death. The best advertisement campaign is by word of mouth. Just imagine if we just do our part to remind one another to be careful. I am sure the mission will be accomplished. Live to tell your grandchildren you made a difference.

BACK TO WHERE IT ALL STARTED

Today went back to see my ENT surgeon MR SP.PALANIAPPAN to check on my ear that feels as though i am in a water tank with water seeping in to my eardrums must be due to CHEMO. I was assured by my surgeon theres nothing to worry about and was prescribed medication which after using gives you a nasty taste.I showed my surgeon the scar on my throat which is hardly noticeable and commended him on the very professional manner of the cut and stitch so much so that others have not notice if i had not told them of the removal of the lump on my neck.All said and done the 2nd cycle 2nd day is worst than the 1st cycle.,but still tolerable and thank god still better than many others and i will continue to pray for god to take away the sufferings of fellow humans round the world and to give me strength to travel this long tunnel and see the light at the end.Family and friends dont stop your words of encouragement and the sms and your prayers for me.